Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
i was in writers craft the other day. i was sitting with my friend whom i told my daydream to when we were drunk. i had writers block for my assigment and i said to her "hmm..give me a name"
she says "kelly"
that is one of my main characters name. why would you bring that up. why would you say that name. i dont know, maybe its not a big deal but i feel embarassed for telling her and i told her thay. i mean, she obviously said that name because of my character
its not like kellys an overly popular name
i dont know, i got a little mad and i responded saying "...another name."
i sounded kind of rude
i was going to use my md as an advantage for this class, but since she knows about what i daydream about she'd know what is if she read it
i feel like i should bring it up to her again, but its so awkward. id have to be drunk to do so
i dont want her to think im crazy, i never told her i have "maladaptive daydreaming", i just said theres a name for it and alot of people do it.
but when she brought up my characters name like that my heart sunk, rememebring someone else knows what goes on in my mind besides me. its personal, ya know?
ps im at school library and theres a class behind me listening to the librarian talking about books and im scared someone can see im on this site LOL
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yeah but i think it would be different if she didnt know my daydream already, but im afraid she'd read that and would think "wow, this goes on in her head all the time? thats fucked up"
i just really wonder how a..i dont know.."normal" person who doesnt MD thinks about someone with MD trying to explain it
ive never talked to her about it sober, i make sure i talk about it when im not sober because thats a good time to vent, hoping she wont remember. but she does.
Anyone who writes fiction, draws characters, etc. is tapping into the essence of maladaptive daydreaming. There is not much difference in the process that allows you to create a character in your that behaves like an actor in your daydream and one that does so written on paper. The one on paper started off like the one in your head, that is how writers do it. Fiction is the craft of illusion, whether it is a magic show, movie, writing, drawing, etc. it is all about presenting an idea of what isn't actually there. Any time you create fiction to a degree you are revealing what goes on in your mind to others, not always intentionally either.
If you leave it in your head it is "maladaptive daydreaming", if you put it on paper it is "writing a story". If you are in "writer's craft" then really you are there to learn the best way to express your ideas, ideals, and daydreams in words, just like everyone else in the room. That includes your friend you told. It'd be a little silly for her to judge you for the very same thing she is there to do, wouldn't it?
I wouldn't mind divulging very general details of my daydreams; I would try to make it kinda vague but also somewhat clear at the same time. But I would be so embarassed if I tell people every single detail of my daydreams (i.e. character names, exact details). Details do matter.
that's why I never tell anyone about my characters or what I DD about. Except that one I posted here, but it had no names in it.
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