Traumatized After A Car Accident. :o

[Jennifer]

Hello Wild Minds,

 

I hope you're all doing well. Happy Monday. :P I just need to vent, I guess, after going through another "big point" in my life.

     Earlier today my mom told me she needed to go to the library to return some books. At first I jumped at the idea, I wanted to go. Then I didn't want to go because I had other plans. Can anyone take a wild guess as to what those plans might have been? That's right, Daydreaming. I almost blew my mom off for Daydreaming. How nice of me. :P But a little later I decided to go with her.

So, we were driving down the road and I was reading something to her. We were passing an intersection when all of a sudden I saw this huge black truck coming at the car. And I screamed louder than I've ever screamed before. As a matter of fact; I didn't even have the knowledge that I could scream to loudly and horrifingly. I remember thinking "No, the truck is going to stop. This isn't going to happen, it's not going to hit us. It's not, it's definitely going to stop. Why isn't it stopping?! Things like this usually always work out for me!" It crashed before I could think anymore. I remember seeing the world whirl by my eyes as the car literally spun around in a circle. I remember seeing my mom frantically trying to steer the car away. The car screeched to a halt, and I looked at my mom who was hunched over the steering wheel, gripping it so hard that her knuckles were white.Her body looked lifeless, as if she were dead. Her hair looked as if it was wind-blown; all in her face, and out of control. I don't know what happened after that. I just remember I started crying immediately after the car stopped and blacked out. I awoke, looking up at the front window. There were police cars and an ambulance and police all surrounding my mom's car. My mom asked me a bunch of times if I was okay, and then started shaking violently. She rubbed her eyes, like, five times as if it would help her remember anything that just happened. The guy in the truck took his time to walk over to our broken-down car and finally asked, "...Are you okay?" My mom shook her head and trembled, trying not to cry. "No..." She said, then started crying. And you know what he did? That a-hole just shrugged and walked away back to his car. Not even bothering to help us.

The police officer told me to get out of the car and asked me for my personal information for insurance reasons. He asked me because my mom was too shaken up to answer anything yet. I walked around the side of the car and saw that this was pretty serious; the whole back door of the car was smashed badly. But the truck that hit us wasn't damaged, of course. I felt dizzy looking at the back door window that was then shattered into pieces and lying around in the back seats of the car. My mom and I didn't go to the Emergency Room in an ambulance; my dad showed up and drove us. After spending 3 1/2 hours in the ER, we both found out that we are both okay and nothing was broken. I just have anxiety attacks every once in a while, and have flashbacks of the scene. I'm even afraid to turn out the lights right now...I don't know what that has to do with what happened earlier, but I'm afraid, and I'm pretty sure that's the reason why. I have random spells of dizziness every once in a while, but overall, I'm completely fine. I know this accident could have been SO much worse. As for my mom, she bruised the right side of her jaw, and skinned her head...She wasn't wearing her seatbelt. Ugh...moms. :P Just kidding. But yes, in all seriousness, she wasn't wearing her seatbelt, and it seriously scares me to know that if the truck had hit even a little bit closer to the driver's door, my mom could have been thrown through the windshield. Everything's fine, I'm just in shock, and I'm afraid to be in a car. Every little turn of the car on the way home from the ER scared the crud out of me. I was gripping the seat belt violently, haha. I don't want any of you to think I'm making a big deal out of this just for attention or to get my story out there...I actually am a bit traumatized. I just can't believe this happened to me. I've always thought, Oh, that kind of stuff only happens to other people, and,Things like that only happen in movies. Well, I got my wake up call. xD

This really helped me out because I realize how precious life really is. How lucky I am to be alive, how lucky I am to have my mother alive. We both could have been dead on the scene if it had been any worse. I mean, I know the experience did a number on me, but I'm pretty much overall okay. It has also made me realize to appreciate the people in my life right now. (Not that I haven't already been taught that lesson, but this just enforced it even more). Earlier today, my best friend and I got into it a little. My best friend as in, my seriously bestest friend. She changed my life so much, and really shaped me into the person I am today. I love her to death. I would take a million bullets for her, and I'm sure she would do the same for me. Okay, that's enough, LOL. Bottom line is, we're really close friends. Haha. But I remember also thinking, when the car hit my mom and me earlier today, that I loved my best friend, and I didn't get to tell her I loved her. I couldn't really control the thought, it kind of just appeared in my mind, you know? Like a "preminition" almost, but not exactly/ I'm sure most of you will understand. It was kind of like a realization, but not exactly. I know that if I died today, I wouldn't be with her right now. I wouldn't be seeing her at school tomorrow. I'm thankful for being able to wake up tomorrow morning and be goofy with her tomorrow. :P

 

Ha, thanks for letting me ramble, guys. I appreciate it. I just don't know what to do with myself right now, I'm so flabberghasted. :o

I hope you're all doing well. :)

Xxx Jennifer. :-)

 

 

[Jennifer]

Thank you all so much for the kind words! And thanks for letting me vent somewhere.

 

@Jennifer Rose

No, I was reading something to my mom when this happened.

[Aine]

So glad you were both able to walk away. Your bestest friend is indeed lucky to have you. I hppe she appreciates you as much as you do her.

[Cordellia Amethyste Rose]

Wow!  What a horrible thing to have happen to you!  I'm so sorry that it did.  I'm glad you're both ok.  Try to hang in there.  

[Jennifer Rose]

were u day dreaming when it happened?