The Jig Is Up

[Mira]

Well, he now knows. I brought it up (it was really hard!) and managed to describe it in general terms, without really giving any details. Maybe I will later, but I'm still really self-conscious about it. Hell, it rattles me that I'm even posting about it on this website.

I'm aware that that kind of makes his job harder- he's my therapist after all, it's his job to analyse this stuff- but I'm kind of taking it in baby steps. 

After my four day "cold turkey", it's been a little bit easier, but not much. Mostly it's because it's NaNoWriMo right now, and that's taking up the majority of my thoughts and anxieties. Obsessing about the fact that I'm not writing a novel is apparently keeping me distracted.

I really should also stop taking my iPod with me wherever I go- I love listening to music, but it puts my brain into outer space faster than you can say "Born This Way". (At least on my morning commute anyway.)

[roxanne]

I'm sure this is something familiar for him, so I wouldn't worry about his being too upset.  He will consider it transference with a little flair.

[Mira]

Yes. I sent him an email last week telling him that I was DD about him, and then I talked to him about it yesterday. He DID want more details, but he wasn't TOO bothersome about it. :)

[roxanne]

Did you tell him it was him?