Philosophy

[stranger in a strange land]

Is philosophizing a way of daydreaming too?

I meqan, because of how it makes me feel & how I (don't) control it.

I can think of a single thing in so many different ways it's weird. The other day I even gave my sister an impression of what a certain desktop wallpaper could be. What it could show, what an artist was thinking while making it. What colours could mean. What was my favourite thing about it. That kind of stuff. An interpretation. But most of the time I think bigger (or not; it depends).

I often think of the universe and how it works, then I get deeper and explore our inner selves to see the details. You know, the heavy thoughts. You could say it's all like zen or something. Like meditation. I've done some research on zen and budhism back then, when I used to feel dull all the time. I was reading a couple of blogs on that theme back then. It was great how I could connect with some teachings but it didn't suck me in entirely. You know, I just looked for the quotes, thoughts and ideas to make me feel happier. I didn't need my soul to develop and proceed to nirvana... okay, I'm moving too far from my question now. sorry.

Anyway, sometimes, when I come up with new ideas about personality, or theories about space (we can't be alone in the entire universe and such ideas) or some sort of connections and stuff; I realise it makes me feel the same way I do when I daydream. Kind of high, I guess.. Does it put me in a different state of mind?

Sometimes it takes a little while to realise I'm actually doing it. Therefore, it isn't entirely in my control. So, is daydreaming a sort of meditation or is that kind of thinking (philosophizing or whatever you call it) a sort of daydreaming??

Oh, dear! Does any of this even make sense? O.o it is after 1am after all.

[stranger in a strange land]

Thanks @john for the philosophy links :) topics really look interesting there. I'll definitely give it a read :) About drugs... I tend to stay away from them because this stuff may be helpful, but at the same time it may also create anew problem. I really hope I'll never have to use them. I turned 20 this summer btw.

I still don't know how to define my "philosophizing"; whether or not it is connected with dd in any way. That's why I put it out here to see other's opinions, so thanks for replies :)