About my daydreaming...

[stranger in a strange land]

I think it started when I was 9 or 10. I turned 20 last August. That makes 10 or 11 years lost in fantasies since then and living a lie I created myself. That makes 50% (or more) of my life; and naturally the percentage is about to start increasing. Soon, if it isn't already.

I daydream most of the time. More excessively when I'm alone; every time before bed. I have trouble falling asleep because of that. But it wasn't always as frequent as it was in the past year. The thing is I took a gap year between colege and university and in that period of time I spent 90% of the time at home. Alone. Although I doubt this wouln't have happened if I was kept busy.I believe it would be just as it is.

Anyway, a few days ago, I did some research on Google if it's okay to daydream so often and get distracted by my fantasies frequently on a daily basis. I came across this forum and a few other sites. They brought facts. I imediately decided to call it quits. Just like that. And it worked. For 2 days. Last night I dreamed of one of the characters from my daydreams. (He plays a role of a close friend) As you may have guessed as soon as I woke up I was back to my daydreaming mode. I tried as hard as one can to avoid them but nothing worked. For a cherry on top, the whole day turned into a nightmare. The worse letdown happened when police called because they caughed my sister stealing stuff from a cosmetic store, which just proved that reality suck and it really is a lot better in my daydreams.

I really wanna shake the whole daydreaming thing, because through 20 years of my life I have 3 close friends +my family. The rest of the people I've met probably don't remember me anymore. I've never had a boyfriend or anything... I find it hard to apply for a job. I'm also very shy and that brings me to giving up on myself before even finding a proper job. I had a few, non for longer than a month, some just a week or less.

I don't know what to do, so I joined this site to share this with someone. I don't wanna tell those few people that I have managed to stay in touch with. I need to get out of this. It has to stop. This clearly isn't easy to control. But I believe there is a way to limit this slowly (back) down to the point of a normal level.

Today was a long, difficul day, so I better get some sleep. goodnight

[stranger in a strange land]

Thanks everyone! :) Last night was weird for me. Hell, the whole day was just bizare. Could it be because I never attmpted to stop dayreaming before? Or was it due to certain events? PMS maybe lol? anyway. I'm doing way better today. Kept myself busy till now. But I seem to be fighting dd just fine for now. I guess believing you can definitely do this helps a lot. Last nigh I just had to spit it out and tell someone. I even told one of my friends later at night. However. I'll see how this goes and I'll write things down in a blog :)

Hope you're all okay and thanks again for all your kind words and warm welcome messages!! :D -xoxo

[Laila]

I really wanna shake the whole daydreaming thing, because through 20 years of my life I have 3 close friends +my family. The rest of the people I've met probably don't remember me anymore. I've never had a boyfriend or anything... I find it hard to apply for a job. I'm also very shy and that brings me to giving up on myself before even finding a proper job. I had a few, non for longer than a month, some just a week or less.

You just described me there. Except the first and last job I ever had was a few years ago during high school. It only lasted a few months too. xD I'm going to a job fair tomorrow, but it will be hard not to shy away from everything. I feel kinda awkward cuz I'm technically not supposed to be there. It's for undergraduates only, but they'll let me pass because I graduated less than 6 months ago. >/p>

 

I'm also sorry to hear about your bad day. D: I hope that tomorrow will be a better day. :) Welcome to the site and have a good time here!

[J Noland]

I think you will find several people here who know exactly what you're going through. Alot of us are having sucess with limiting our dding. I'm in my late 30's and I have trained myself to not dd before bed so I can get to sleep and be awake for my full time job. You can have a boyfriend and you can finish school and get a good job. You just have to find what works for you. I can't tell you it will be easy, I don't know what other problems you may be facing but I can say that this is a very helpful place. There are many people on this site trying to stop dding completely too and we are all wishing them well and reading their struggles and triumphs.  I'm sorry you had such a bad day.

[Destiny Lund]

Thanx 4 sharing this!  It was awesome of U to share such a deep thing.  
:-)
Nice to meet you by the way.