On Paper

[Rachel S]

Today has been a bad day.

 

Throughout the night I dreamt about my DD characters in a complex story that was pretty adrenaline filled. When I woke (Lunchtime! After twelve hours sleep! It's like I'm trapped in my dreams) I lay awake and finished the story for about an hour. I then went to town on my day off to do a few errands etc and daydreamed the entire time. Then I got home and ate. And daydreamed constantly. So I'm a bit sick now.

 

I have an empty notebook I keep under the bed. I decided to start my MD diary. First entry done and wow, how embarrassing to write it all down on paper. "In my new daydream I am an angel who has super powers and often has to save her friends from..." I could go on. I've never had dreams like this before. Usually I'm a normal person who leads an exciting life, but not some sort of superhero. (I've been watching Supernatural, which is where the idea came from.)

 

Anyway, one line I wrote made me angry. "Homesick for an imaginary house that I don't live in and lovesick for a person who doesn't exist." That is genuinely how I feel. It's horrible.

 

And this condition still isn't recognised by doctors. Pah!

[Rachel S]

Thank you! Today is a bit better.

 

TV shows like Supernatural are pretty bad for MD I think because they're so dramatic, full of angst and addictive. Plus the characters are really interesting. Once I'm through season 6 (catching up) and then 7 which is on now I should be able to let it go and then my DD about it will fade in time. Usually my DDs last for a couple of months and then change.

 

:)