I’m 16 and I have been living with maladaptive daydreaming since I was nine, it all started when u got sexu@lly @ssulted by my dad from the age of 6-12, there are certain triggers to it and most of the time I get angry by these triggers and I scream not nothing comes out, it takes away all my negative energy but I did something similar when I was younger where I was tense up my whole body and shake to get rid of the energy, my md starts at night and I have this whole story to it and I would stay awake for hours whispering to myself and crying because I am trapped in this world, sometimes it’s a nice story line and I feel safe in my world but when I watch films sometimes the story line of the film goes into my story and messes up the calm environment I made for myself, the main thing that shows us when I start this is my dad, i think in my mind I’m trying to make things right and to understand what happened but it do get embarrassed about my md and I told my mum about it and I could tell she didn’t understand and thinks that I’m being childish or whatever but I know that my inner child is broken but I don’t know how to fix her just yet, I do sometimes feel like I’m crazy but seeing these comments makes me feel a little more sane, I’m not sure how to stop these episodes though, they are so frequent and it’s tiring but I don’t know how to explain to somebody how I’m feeling because I’m so embarrassed and I don’t want people to laugh or judge.

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Comment by Leoni on April 6, 2022 at 7:42am
Yeah I like to listen to music to calm me down
Comment by Kiruba Victor on April 6, 2022 at 7:24am

I see. Similar here too. I have comfort people around me. And music drives my daydreams often. Mostly these days, dreams are of redemption. Like getting back from something hurtful

Comment by Leoni on April 6, 2022 at 7:10am
It’s almost like a story, it progresses and if I watch a movie that movie will be interpreted into the storyline, my place where I am currently in the episode is my safe place and the people around me are my comfort people
Comment by Kiruba Victor on April 6, 2022 at 7:07am

Amazing. I'm from India. I'm curious. Tell me about the storylines of your daydreams. If you're comfortable, of course.

Comment by Leoni on April 6, 2022 at 7:00am
Wales
Comment by Kiruba Victor on April 6, 2022 at 6:59am

That's good. Where are you from, by the way? I'm curious.

Comment by Leoni on April 6, 2022 at 6:53am
School is back to normal now so I go normally and just get on with my lessons
Comment by Kiruba Victor on April 6, 2022 at 6:52am

Same here. I get overwhelmed often, especially at the mention of overtime and targets in my line of work. And yeah, I understand how it feels. There will always be that one rude fellow who thinks he's above everyone, which is annoying. So you attend classes everyday virtually or offline?

Comment by Leoni on April 6, 2022 at 6:49am
Well being a waitress is quite hard because you do get some rude people and I do feel very overwhelmed sometimes. School is okay for me as I don’t have any exams until next year because it’s all course work based but once again I do get very overwhelmed sometimes and I stress easily
Comment by Kiruba Victor on April 6, 2022 at 6:47am

Wow, that's juggling a lot of things. I'm working in marketing for an educational company and I'm finding it hectic XD. How are you handling school and work?

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