Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I recently tried some alternative therapy (Private Subconscious mind Therapy). I felt it worked, and I felt like I received some direction in my life. I got this overwhelming urge to drop everything and go travelling.
For years I’ve felt like I’ve been trapped, and I keep doing the same thing over and over and over again. I still live at home and have a semi-toxic relationship with my parents. I’m not working and I hate the admin jobs I’m qualified for. I’ve pretty much given up on completing my degree. I just want to get out!
After the therapy it was all so clear – take off, no matter what anyone says, get out into the world and find spiritual enlightenment. I was so excited. This was it - the turning point.
Then I hit Google for some research, and my rational mind won over. A lot of places are in less than desirable provinces, especially for young(ish) single women. I made the mistake of watching the movie “Taken” (keywords = girls, Paris, kidnap, sex trade). I started doubting myself – this was just one of those stupid ideas I get occasionally.
But now it’s nagging at me again. I have the money. I don’t have any commitments holding me back. There are thousands of backpackers who return home safely. This is just the kind of adventurous thing I need to do. I can do it, even if the voice in my head says I can’t.