One day while in the car I looked in the mirror (don't worry I wasn't driving my mom was) and said "Ugh my acne is so bad". Jokingly I said "Why am I so ugly".
My mom says "Maybe you need therapy. It's not normal for you to be complaining about things like this and you calling yourself ugly" "You get too emotional and I am scared one day you will do something"
This really upset me because...
1.) I was joking around. I am fine with my appearances. Along time ago I had low self esteem and I was a deeply insecure freshman and sophomore. I alone fought my insecurties and now I am fine with myself. With or without make or even with acne I know I am pretty and I'm okay with who I am. I love myself (in a non narcissistic way)
2) "Too emotional" yes I get sad and upset but c'mon I am not depressed. I do get emotional but that's just me and its not all the time.
3.) "Do something" oh mom. Is that the type of person you think I am. I have been sad for a while but I have never cut myself. I told her that too. I told her that I wouldn't kill myself because if that was the case I'd be dead a long time ago. She made me sound unstable which I am not. I know if she could see me at school with others she would know I am normal.
4.) Lastly for heavens sakes mother I have been sad for a long time (but that was only during my fres. and sop. years) and you just notice now. I alone fought my sadness and everything I felt and bottled up. You're pushing this crap on me now -.-
Thanks everyone who took time to read my petty rant. I'm doing fine. I know I have issues but they are not bad :) I can fix myself by myself. I just need people like you guys once in a while to listen or maybe even understand. My mom isn't a bad mom but doesn't know about me and my issues and MD. I almost exploded on her and told her everything but I didn't want her to worry org hurt her. She took her words back so that's all what matter.
Thanks again and have a nice day :)