Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
Today was scary. It was one of those rare but intense daydreaming days for me. I spent 15 hours lying in bed, sleeping and daydreaming. The only thing I ate was a small sandwich at 5pm. I didn't even want to eat. I looked as if I had all the symptoms of depression, except that I was having an extremely delightful time in my head. I’m glad I’m not like this all the time, but it truly scares me afterwards. Am I the only one who has daydreamed to this extreme?
The entire day, I daydreamed about my main characters (Kevin and Dan) falling in love while ice skating. Perhaps the newness of the idea got me hooked, because I haven't thought of it before. Kevin didn’t know how to ice skate and hated his first attempt, but Dan was willing to teach him. There was going to be an ice skating race/marathon coming up that all of Kevin’s friends were participating in. It looked something like this:
Since Dan was teaching Kevin how to ice skate, he had an excuse to touch him. Dan would say, “Let go of the rail, and I’ll guide you. Don’t worry, I won’t let you fall.” Kevin would look at him reluctantly, wishing so much that he wasn’t there, but gave into his commands anyway. Before he realized it, he was enjoying the session, and they were growing closer. One week later, he was ready for the race.
In order to participate, you had to have a partner. Kevin asked Dan to be his partner, despite that Dan wasn't originally planning to participate. Finally on the day of the marathon, they met up and observed the crowds, waiting for it to begin. Two of Kevin’s friends spotted them together, called them over, and said, “Wow, I just knew you’d be partners. Are you lovebirds getting married soon?” To both Kevin and Dan’s astonishment, neither of them answered the question with a negative response. They simply looked at each other, speechless, curious, and afraid to say something offensive. Was not saying something offensive? They had never discussed the possibility of being together, yet they definitely felt something for each other. Well, Dan came up with a clever response, whatever it was, and sent Kevin’s friends away.
Then Dan’s best friend, Milley, snuggled between them, grabbing both of their arms. That was a relief, because they had no idea what to say after that awkward moment. The race began shortly. Kevin and Dan skated next to each other in silence. Now and then, one of Kevin’s friends would pass them and scream out “Hey, how are you two lovebirds doing!” It was especially annoying to Kevin, who was becoming more flustered by the minute. Noticing his discomfort, Dan took a chance and grabbed his hand. The next time Kevin’s friends passed them, they didn’t say anything. It was just one of those “Oh, the joke is real. Well, let's leave them alone now" moments.
The sun was beginning to set, and they were still holding hands. Dan occasionally asked him, “How are you holding up? Are you getting tired?” Kevin would always say “No” and they’d keep going. Suddenly, they came up to two women who were sitting on the ice. One of them sprained her ankle. Dan immediately offered to help her, but the injured woman declined politely, saying they had already called someone for help. Her partner then looked at Kevin and said, “Wow, your boyfriend sure is nice.” This comment surprised him—even strangers thought they were a couple. Then again, maybe she saw them holding hands, or most partners in the race were male/female pairs. Kevin replied, “He’s always like this," and smiled a little.
Since there wasn’t anything Kevin or Dan could do for the two ladies, they continued on ice skating. Night quickly fell upon them, and they were growing exhausted. Lots of people had already given up on the race, but they weren’t going to quit. Holding hands gave them emotional support to finish. Neither said a word—they just wondered what the heck was going to happen after they finished.
Eventually, they finished the race, with a huge satisfactory smile on their faces. Many families were still gathered with banners and lights to cheer for them. Kevin’s friends were already resting up in a restaurant nearby, which was crowded beyond belief. Kevin and Dan peered inside the window and gave each other the "I'm NOT going in there" look, so they decided to go someplace where they could be alone. One thing lead to another, and Dan suddenly grabbed Kevin in a loving embrace, giving him a long and passionate kiss.
Annnd that’s all I daydreamed today, replaying it over and over and over and over and over. I get so hung up on the scenes where Dan is teaching Kevin how to ice skate, when they’re skating in silence, the feeling of the cold air, the excitement of the race, the kiss at the end...and all of that. I’m probably going to have another round of this daydream tomorrow, but hopefully I’ll be able to make myself do other things. I’m behind on my anime reviews. *sigh* D: