Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I'm a 17 year old, who's just finished schooling. My final examinations got over last month and I'm currently preparing for the competitive exams, more like trying to prepare for them. I haven't been able to study properly for the past one year and I still can't focus. I'd taken therapy last year to treat a mental health issue but just as the therapy got over, I fell into this trap of MD. And I haven't told anyone about this because I have a very strong feeling that nobody will understand. Nobody sees daydreaming as a serious problem. I've spent so many hours in the past year just daydreaming(mostly in the washroom, so nobody can catch me doing it or interrupt me). And, it's getting worse. I've started loving it much more than my reality. I seem to forget that my daydreams are not real. It's like I'm waiting for something that's literally never going to happen, and that waiting has lowered my patience drastically. But my daydreams aren't always positive, at times, they make me cry too. I don't feel good about having MD, it makes me feel like I'm dumb and an underachiever. My mental health has been horrible for the past four years, but MD is the thing that's affecting me, especially my studies, the most. I've always been an ambitious person, but I'm not able to work towards achieving my goals. And I feel terrible for not working hard, while people out there are creating the life of their dreams, I lay in bed daydreaming. I've been trying to quit doing this but I just can't. I really need help. I don't know if anybody can relate to me, but Thank You to anyone who took out their time to read this.