Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
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I am trying so hard to drop maladaptive daydreaming...no offence. It coloured years and years of my life. At first, I felt it had no harm on my future. Wrong. It effected every little aspect of my lifelong experiences. It effected how I related and bonded with everyone around me, my concentration in class and work. And to this day, I struggle to earn my independence. There is absolutely nothing I can hide. It's like people have x-ray vision and just detect that I must be daydreaming. If they're too dumb to figure, they'll simply ask "why" I carried on the way I do, especially when I don't listen (even talk to air!).
It makes me feel like a blundering idiot, not to get in my skull, someone is going to notice and flip right out. Especially if I make a stupid mistake, or didn't hear what has been said (even not remember or observe some important detail of something that happened in my surrounding environment). I knew people who reacted on me like a took a trip to Pluto. I've even known people who literally found me nuts.
Even if my daydreaming slowed down, and I tried my hardest not to daydream, I still have had people bring stuff up about what they think I'm going about at. I must note, I do have Asperger syndrome, and that's double the trouble. We tend to have problems listening, reading emotions, cluing into events anyway. I sometimes feel it suck to be me, because the things I do is not normal to societal norms. Even if I pretended to be of social norm for a second, I can't fool anybody. Sometimes I think people are like blood hounds that way.
So my point is that I found it smart to simply not do MD. So yes, I am trying to fight it off. But getting to your points, it's very hard and near impossible to ultimately stop it, especially if you were born with it. My dad is aware and open-ended that this is naturally me, whereas my mom and other people are just astounded.
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