Don't want to live. Don't want to die.

[Grace]

I hate time. I hate how fast it passes. 2013 already? Its insane... I feel like its not enough. I feel like why should I try? Time passes too fast and it seems like it just doesn't matter. What can we get out of this life, if its so short? I don't want to be an adult. Ever. I don't want to live, but I don't want to die. I want time to stop forever. Actually, I'm not sure what I want. Maybe I just want to go to sleep. Forever. Not like dying, but just being in dreamland forever.

I don't know. I've never attempted to explain this before, but here it is. Does anyone Understand? I feel like yall are the only people who would. Have you ever felt like this before?

[Madelyn]

Ahh... The purpose driven life, good book.

[northern gal]

You might want to read the book "The Purpose Driven Life...What on Earth am I Here For" by Rick Warren.  It is second the most highly sold and second most highly translated book ever next to the Bible.  I read it a few years ago, and now bought another copy to read.  For me, it really puts things into perspective.  I haven't really went to church that often in the past few years...haven't really found a church I feel I could fit into.  I'm hoping reading this book gets me back on track with my life, my direction...you might find it useful.

[KwanKwan]

I feel exactly like you do. I never told anyone really. It's like i just want to be excused from life, but i'm not talking about death. I just want time to stop, and when i'm ready i can just enter back into it.

[Zoe]

This is exactly what I feel but I've never been able to put it into words. I'm terrified of death but I'm exhausted of life. I've had enough but I don't want to die. I don't want to be an adult. I can't. Its not that I don't want to grow old its just I'm terrified in a weird way. I understand exactly what your saying. :(

[taffle]

Yes, I've been in college for almost 6 years and I look back think to myself, "how much time have I wasted changing majors and being so indecisive and misguided?"I wished I had made better and wiser decisions, instead of listening to my parents or jumping on the bandwagon with other people.

[Amoka]

Like I could spend forever just dreaming and still not have enough time. I get what you mean. Time passes too soon, and everyone is telling me to choose what i want to get out of life, but I just don't know. I don't know what i want, or where I will be so I just go with whatever happens around me.