Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
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Hi, so I was wondering how many people on here started to daydream or daydream excessively after something tramatic happened to them. I know this can be a rather touchy topic, but I am honestly curious and mean no harm.
I naturally assumed my excessive daydreaming was nothing serious and later on found out it was more of a coping thing for me and my soical anxiety. I personally haven't had anything tramatic happen to me (not that I can remember anyway) and was also wondering if, has anyone's daydreaming lead to them remembering repressed memories?
I kinda wonder sometimes if my daydreams are a reflection of my suppressed emotions or maybe even repressed memories.
I know this isn't exactly an advice forum or a general psychological forum but I was just wondering ( I do that a lot).
Sorry.
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Not triggered by anything traumatic, but worsened at high school and got significantly worse at the start of yr11, possibly caused by the February (or maybe even the first September) quake. Or maybe it just got worse 'cause it got worse.
Definitely triggered as a coping mechanism to sexual abuse from the age of 11.
I've been DDing for as long as I can remember so one specefic traumatic experience is hard to grasp but I did have it rough as a kid. My dad was abusive and alcoholic and my mother was very neglectful. My mother used to actually push me away from her if I wanted a hug and I seriously can't remember a single in depth conversation I ever had with her. Looking back I think she suffered from depression. I had two older siblings and a twin who always seemed more normal and more loved. My parents used to say me and my sister were accidents and it always made me feel so unloved and unwanted. In my DDs I was loved and appreciated. After I was laid off from a job I really liked about 3 years ago I started to DD a lot to deal with those feelings. I tried looking for a new job but it was so difficult and I ended up spending all day at home reading , playing computer games and DDing. I've been treated for depression and I've experienced social anxiety. A couple of years ago I had to stop speaking to my twin sister because her depression and lack of empathy for others made me realize she was a bad influence on my life. So basically childhood abuse , the loss of a of a good paying emotionally satisfying job, and the distance with my sister were traumatic for me.
I don't think it was because of anything traumatic for me. While I had experienced some depression in the past, at the particular time my MD started, I wasn't overly unhappy or dissatisfied, at least from what I can remember. I think my first MD episode was a culmination of a couple loosely-tied triggers, all of them having to do with what most people would regard as "normal" daydreaming. I think the daydreaming never left me after that.
This is kind of off topic, but now that I think about it, my daydreams were frequent and very involved but they didn't really have a maladaptive characteristic until years later, when they got in the way of schoolwork and normal social functioning. Not sure what changed but something did. Whether or not I became more attached to my daydreams as a result of a traumatic event is unlikely, but it may have been the result of general self-dissatisfaction.
I can't remember anything traumatic, but I was bullied a lot, and I hate saying that, because I don't like playing the victim card, but I was.
I mean I've been daydreaming since I was little, but I think it's normal to daydream a lot when you're little. I remember I would sit alone at the lunch table and make faces and talk like someone was across from me (Cringe...)
I don't think bullying caused this, maybe it did, but I think it definitley pushed me farther into it. I was like a foot taller than everyone else, developing much faster, getting acne and I had frizzy, curly hair and kids didn't try to keep their thoughts to myself. But yeah, I do always find myself being a "victim" in my daydreams and wanting someone to "save me".
Oh, and I'm not complaining, it's all in the past, and I've changed a lot in that way and hear more nice things than mean things these days, I know it's all on me to change. But I think MD can be caused by trauma, I think it's an escape, an addictive one.
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