Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I'm a completely different person in real life than I am in my daydreams. I do things I want to do but would absolutely never do in real life. I imagine my life turn out to be something that'll not only make me upset if my life turned out this way, but also my mom and my friends. I dream about partying, smoking, stealing, being with bad guys, and just being wild and having fun. In real life, I would never do the things I daydream about. But when I grow up, have more control over my life, have less things holding me back, will I be more prone to such a lifestyle that I imagine in my daydreams? Has the person you were in your daydreams ever come out in reality? Have any of you ever lived your daydreams? Do you think the person you see in your daydreams is who you really are but because of your low self-esteem, you're too scared to show it?
Another thing I'd like to discuss is a few days ago, I saw one of the members post something about Bipolar and MD. I wouldn't say I have bipolar. But my mood sometimes is dependant on the weather. I notice that whenever it's raining or cloudy, I'll feel depressed for no reason. At times, I'll be depressed for absolutely no reason despite what weather it is outside and I'll try to think about a reason why I feel so shitty. I'd ask myself whether it was a thought in my head that made me so upset but most of the time during these phases, I'll never figure it out. At times I'll be anxious for no reason and my heart rate would increase. Has anyone else experienced that? Do you think that's a form of bipolar? Of course the times that I do have my daydreams, I am extrememly happy.