Where wild minds come to rest
I haven't logged in for a long time. No change or actually change but for the worse. I have the most fickle point of view and feelings when it comes to my "conditions" ...
I am in my world 90 percent of my day if feels like unless I watch TV. I cannot imagine getting back out in the working world like this.
I even went to a therapist and she was like "What?" When I mentioned MDD to her. I told her it wasn't official in the books but you'd think she would have heard SOMETHING about it. But because she hadn't she seemed not even interested in discussing it. I felt even more a freak telling her about it in my own words and what I do that I gave up. She said some other things but it made me so angry I am trying to forget it. But she poo-pooed this as though it was simple daydreaming. And even tried to make out how it was a good thing and didn't harm anyone.
Oh...harms no one but my relationships with my children. My husband. And keeps me absolutely introverted and reclusive socially.
I also asked her about my obsessive thoughts on other things and how I feel like I'm becoming agoraphobic. She asked if I keep an obsessively clean house. I said no. She said "well you don't have OCD" ...
Yeah. I didn't go back. Apparently they let just anyone become a therapist. Last time I go with a social worker therapist. Next time maybe an actual psychiatrist will take me seriously.