This post is going to sound weird but who is normal here anyways?
(Please warning dont try the below you could end up like me and hurt your kidneys)
So I believe am the only one who has this urge to hold in my pee and fantasize about negative scenarios
I have been doing the above since I believe the age 12 until I finally leak in my pants. And i also feel pain in kidneys and bladder at times but I still cant help it .I still do that till this age (am almost 17) even if i am rite in front of the toilet seat I first complete the daydream before getting it out most of the time.
So many a times I have to change my underwear simply beacuse some amount of urine has leaked out on it.
If there is urine stored in my bladder even if i dont have the urge to go the toilet i get myself to feel it so am able to Md about negative scenarios.
Rite now due to having done that my lower abdomen and both of my kidneys are hurting so i thought i should post it.
I know doing the above is not good but i cant just seem to stop.