Where wild minds come to rest
As Kenny Rogers sang "Just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in". Read the blogs, all very good and I relate a lot. I've been dealing with shame and guilt recently. It seems like a lifelong issue. I was never good enough or tried hard enough...blah blah blah. I think it is crucial that I accept my condition (MDD), but not surrender to it, and forgive myself. For me, it is a defense mechanism to make myself feel worthy of being accepted and Loved. That is the key element in this strange trip, learn to Love and trust myself, then I won't need my fantasy life. I will be happy living in my real life.
I encourage everyone to devote some attention (not obsessive) to the chattering (heckling) little inner voice & to befriend and Love it. Think of it as a frightened abused child needing encouragement and Love. Most of all Love. Surround yourself with positive people and things that you Love. Create a world and a life that is genuine and fulfilling. You already know how to dream!