Here's one of my favorite twelve-step slogans: "In addiction, fear stands for 'f*** everything and run.' When I'm willing to let go of addiction, fear stands for 'face everything and recover.'" No particular twelve-step program endorses this underground slogan, but I've heard it around and I like it.

I've been grouchy all week, and I haven't wanted to talk about it. Here's the thing: I went to a sweat lodge for the first time last weekend. I thought it would be relaxing, but it was actually very intense. I enjoyed it at the time, but I realized afterward that my lust for the intense fantasies was triggered. My MD has always been very physical. I don't just pace; I run back and forth and jump in the air, often bouncing off of a wall when I do it. So I think the physical intensity…

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Yesterday, I told my mom about this forum. I said "You remember when I used to run around in circles to music when I was a kid?" and she said "You still do that?" I can see how my behavior sounds strange for a 43-year-old. I said "not for three months." The truth is it's been more like 2.5 months, but I thought three sounded better. I don't feel embarrassed about my MD when I talk to new people, but talking to my mom was tough. She got serious and quiet for half a second, which she never…

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