i'm sad. and i'm tired

and i just want to talk, you know? talk about everything i'm feeling but i can't talk to anyone. i can't talk about it with my mom without her freaking out and wanting to solve a problem that she can't and she doesn't understand. she doesn't understand me because she is also overloaded and it is also so difficult...

I don't have time for anything, I don't like and can't do anything at work, I can't stand college anymore, I can't stand my family and I just…

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I am in front of the computer trying to start a work assignment and a college activity and I just CANNOT get it done. I am feeling so agitated, I feel like daydreaming but I can't concentrate, and my brain is completely confused, like I can't understand what I am supposed to do, they are simple things but I just can't get it into my head. Have you ever felt this way?

today i started at my first job. i just had an anxiety attack and started screaming a lot. i am feeling sad and empty and confused and very very very pathetic. i don't like my chosen field and i don't remember my classes, i feel like i am falling off a cliff. i feel like i am an imposter in my own life and i can see the time when my bosses are going to realize how horrible i am. and worse: i need this job, i need to help my mom urgently because we are in a very very bad situation and i should… Continue

ok, but have you ever read a book, or a movie, or seen a news article about some famous person, of something that happened and it hurt you like it was you? and it hurt like hell and you were devastated for weeks and not even daydreaming could make it better? i have these moments and i am going through one right now. i avoid reading/watching/knowing other things for two reasons: not to daydream about them and not to feel their pain. and i wonder if this is dissociation in its deepest form?… Continue

Well, I’m going to identify myself as a G, because I don’t really like my name and it’s big. And sorry for the English, I’m from Brazil and have some difficulties in this language. I just wanted to ... well, say hello. I discovered this forum this week and MD a few weeks ago. Before I thought I was crazy, a freak, something unsolved. I’ve done a lot of research into any similar condition in psychology, but I don’t think I’ve expressed myself well. I do this because I understand myself…

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