Go on and break this castle of glass. Burn it down and burn it fast. It doesn't matter anyway, because every thing falls and every thing breaks. Even the bird that flies above, can be shot down with just one gun.

I wrote this little bit last night and even after morning broke, it still rang true.  I should have checked myself into a hospital or something, because right now I feel just as hopeless as I did before. The headache doesn't help.

I feel like I can't trust anyone…

I'm starting to think that it isn't my MDing that makes life difficult. It's life being difficult that makes me MD.

Maybe I'm just seeing things the wrong way. Who could blame me? Right now I would give anything, anything at all to be able to just forget that my life is so hard right now. I wish I could, but I need privacy for MDing, and that is something I don't have right now. I'm so depressed right now that MDing probably wouldn't be as satisfying as it usually is anyway. …

I used to think, up until recently, that my DD characters didn't really resemble myself but I just realized, that I've put more of myself into them than I realize.

My main DD character is Jay. Recently, I've decided he is 15 years old and just starting High School. He's blind, due to a car accident that took his Mother's life and he has a twin sister who is sort of like him but at the same time tries to distance herself from him because he is just so... Out there, that she…