As you can see I am continuing to analyze myself. Once I've found out about my maladaptive daydreaming, I am trying to observe my emotions and actions. I asked myself "What keeps my mind in real life?". What makes me more interested in reality and my presence here and now?

The answer for me is kind a ironic. It's creative activity, all sorts of it. For example, I get excited by drawing. It makes my mind busy and keeps my mood up. I've always liked to draw, but now I see it as…

The reason why I began to search my condition was that one day I felt dissapointed in my real life. Suddenly, I felt pity of myself because I would never be as successful, as beautiful or charming as I was in my dreams. Then I stopped and realized that I am dreaming my time away instead of making those dreams happen. Instead of doing something which would let me, for example, improve at my work or make me feel beautiful, I just dreamed of time that I am already all of that.

I…

I am not a native English speaker, so excuse me for my mistakes.

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Why I named this post a sudden realization?

Because I clearly realized my problem only yesterday. I always knew that it is something strange about me, but I thought that maybe it is my brain's unique way to process things.

In short, after a week I was hung up on my last fantasy, yesterday…