I am feeling from a very long time that I have a very low self esteem. I am not consistent , I have lack of planning and I am a complete person of failure . I feel that with the passage I am completely lost in real world. Nothing new , nothing interesting .I never get interested in any activity and if I take any interest I lose my interest very quickly

 I am feeling that I am drowning in water and there is no light , no hope o courage only pain and depression .No one is going to help…

I am a student and I ' m 19 years old I have suffering from this since my childhood.I am usually day dreaming abut love , pride,success and it's rare that I think about any fictional charac ter.

Anyways it is not any important thing what I want to know about from mdd community is that  dd cause any hurdle in reading because I am suffering from this and it's really difficult to concentrate in studies :(