Lately I've been dd a lot. And I do this thing where I push everyone in real life away. And I've done so to my best friend and I just don't even know what to say to her anymore. It's like something happened and I don't know her anymore.

Nothing changed. 

But I can't feel our friendship.

This always happens. Between myself and everyone I know. I know it's because I retreat into my head and then reality just doesn't compare. But I'm at a loss. 

A loss of words and…

Hey everyone! 

Thought I'd make another blog post that goes into more detail about myself and my MD.

So here we go (:

I've been day dreaming for as long as I can remember. Most of my childhood memories are actually pretend memories. Incredibly real to me but not to anyone else because they all happened in my head. 

Along with the day dreaming I'm a pacer. 

I must have done it all the time without really realizing that it was "weird"

I…

I just joined this site and just discovered "maladaptive daydreaming"

For the longest time (ok I'm only 16 but still) I thought I was alone, a freak. 

I'd never heard of anyone else spending hours pacing back and forth while weaving intricate daydreams and alternate realities, personas, and friends. 

The fact that I'm not the only person who does this made me burst into tears. 

I just want people who understand to talk to. 

I want to not keep it as a…