My MD is extremely disruptive, help.

[Shinobody]

I really need to stop my MD habit. It's not that bad during the day, but one of my trigger is waking up - it feels so nice and cozy, it immediately triggers my MD, making it really hard to get out of it, I often spend 3 to 8 hours in bed just daydreaming before getting up, even if I set an alarm clock (or multiple alarms). Obviously it's not a trigger I can avoid. It might be so severe because I don't just have MD, but other comorbid disorders - ADHD (self diagnosed) which makes me more prone to zoning out, and so does my schizotypal disorder (professionally diagnosed). Also depression/depressive episodes probably don't help.

I previously had some success with using medication, I discussed it with my psychiatrist and he prescribed me risperidone before sleeping. However, right now I don't have access to medication or psychiatrist (I can't get up in the morning, so I can't call to make an appointment).

This is especially annoying since some of my other symptoms have cleared up and I started taking serious steps to improving my life and realizing my goals, I want to be an artist and game designer - and I actually started drawing more, and joined two video game projects as a level designer.

Does anyone have any advice that could help me control my daydreams and be more functional? Whatever has worked for you, I can try.

[Kalliope]

Hi! I'd share a story and a technique with you:

It's a zen story, so it's short, and I'll butcher the retelling because I couldn't find where I read it.

A zen student goes to the zen master, and asks, lord, how do I wake up in the best way? The zen master answers: Wake up swiftly, without delay! Like throwing off an old, worn pair of slippers at the bottom of a stair!

What you also could try is, before you go to bed, get everything ready, and in the morning listen to a guided body-scan technique. You could start with something easy (a 3-10 minute one from headspace) or, if you don't fall asleep easily, try the proper one (Jon Kabat-Zinn's first book - see, not 'if you get distracted easily', but 'if you fall asleep easily' - I believe Kabat-Zinn's method has its benefits in its rigorosity).

Try, try, try again; clean, 3-minute toe-to-head body-scan, no MD, is a victory. This will give you a rooting in reality, and feedback how your body feels.

You might need professional help, especially because the reason you don't get help is that you can't make an appointment. Please take care of yourself.