Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I stopped being active with maladaptive daydreaming years back. I have crucial responsibilities, try to stay away and concentrate, but notice that I suddenly wonder off and my eyes go dazed for a minute or so. This happens when I'm chill and during an stress-free time. Family and friends have made remarks that I look like my mind is somewhere else. I'm not sure though, it's more like I zone out. I'm trying to seek employment, but so afraid that when I start a new gig, someone will notice my eyes! Maybe even my frozen state. Unless the job is remote.
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Real life just doesn't look like what you picture as a kid. You think you'll have everything all figured out, and up the road you'll be gold. Life is baffling. It's a big struggle. It's full of inconveniences. You're going to be disillusioned along the way. Some of your goals may not work out.
For example, I can't even get a job, right now. I applied to 40 places this week. Everything from merchandise, repairing, to cutting stone. I'm thinking of showing up in person to hand a resume, like old times. Heck with the internet.
You want something to happen...do it yourself.
What is your online business? What is hard about keeping it stable?
I am counting on landing a contract somewhere, or a line of freelance work. At this extent, I'll have to make alternate plans. Freaking out right now. Never thought this would happen. I relied too much on indeed and LinkedIn. It seems hard to believe, I'll find a full-time gig at this rate.
I'll have to network, keep a matrix of contacts, and ask people if they need me to do their projects. Even research company websites, show them my resume and profile. Apparently, just sending my applications around will do me no good. I will have to seriously persevere.
I'm also thinking of changing careers. I picked a field that was too challenging, competitive and fast for me. I was naive when I jumped into the program. Now I feel like I messed things up, due to my stupid decision making.
Thanks this is all helpful.
Could you describe more about the business? What is your interest? Is it products or services?
Your English is jumbled in this blog. Is English your second language?
I would've considered an online business independently an advantage. But I'm not a business person. I'm really just an artist. I could sell something I did, like a painting, on an ecommerce website that's managed by someone.
What is your business about? What are you selling?
By all means, share your thoughts. The feeling is mutual. I feel like MD took over my life and decisions, and this is probably why I live in a rut—I didn't want in the first place. If I didn't have stern relatives, I probably wouldn't have still lived where I am now. I probably would've lived in a condo, holding a bunch of part-time jobs and side hustles. But apparently in real life, I still live with my parents and sister, because I wasn't smart, strong and mature enough to change all that.
I honestly don't know why I didn't grow up to the person I should've been. Maybe my mom did too much for me, and I didn't learn any worldly responsibilities while I got raised. And I didn't adjust into socialization like I was supposed to, because most times, I was frickin daydreaming all day long and talking to my invisible friends. I simply didn't ever fit in, probably because I have Asperger syndrome, and nobody like the fact I had trouble with social interaction and holding a conversation overt-time without sounding too quiet and awkward.
It wasn't easy being me socially, I got made fun for the way I looked, behaved, and sounded. I found myself in the wrong crowds. I finally met the right crowd at my art teacher's home farm, and I finally felt like I belonged. They accepted that I had an imagination. I'll showcase my artistic talents to them, they're all friendly people.
Anyway...I'm sorry to hear that you're suffering from psychological disorders. I almost went psychotic if I hadn't pulled myself out of MD. I'm glad I did.
To be honest, I don't particularly have "friends." I have 2 that are close to me. But I'm not a social butterfly. Those people in the art community, I see maybe a couple times a year. I just wish I met more like them, that's all.
My big concern right now is landing employment. It's extremely important, I have to be making money. And it's taking me too long...honestly, I've never faced a situation where I wasn't working for 2 years.
I have done 3D with AutoCAD and Max3D years back. I'm much better with Digital Design and 2D. I worked a lot in Ads and Marketing in my previous gigs.
Sure, thanks.
I hope you get well, so you can sort out launching your business.
Thing is, I'm not sure if this is what I want.
Like I might've gone on a path that's really not for me.
I'm considering doing something else...
You're profile name is Mina, but you mentioned you're a guy?
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