Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
Usually the point of our daydreaming is to take us away from the pain/boredom of every life. I was just wondering if many of you did the opposite, like try to bring their identity to fit in a real-world setting. For example, I've made characters that are professional athletes, singers, movie stars, etc. For athletes, I'd play a sports video game and make statistical profiles for them, but also add biographical information for them like where they are from, what college they might have attended. For actors I'd make an IMDB profile of sorts and have similar info. If I had characters that looked like someone famous, I'd even try to photoshop different clothes on them to give them a complete profile and photo set.
I also have a friend who is an artist. Through messageboards and her own site she gets commissioned to illustrate comics. Sometimes a customer will write the story and she will illustrate it. Other times they'll give her a summary along with character profiles. Sometimes these are of a sexual nature, but sometimes they are not. She also does comics inspired by various animaes and mangas. The most amazing part of my friend's online shop is that she makes a few thousand dollars a month doing this...so there are plenty of dreamers out there (although some of it caters to people's fetishes as well and I think people with MD have dreams that are much more expansive than that). I also realize the distinction between fan fiction versus our own, highly-customized dreams, since fan fiction can be a a very social activity that draws you into an entire community while I felt isolated by my MD.
I apologize if this is weird to anyone. Just wondering if anyone has gone to such lengths to bring their dreams/characters to life.
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I may be getting off topic . . . but does anyone lapse into daydreams without actually deciding to do so? For instance, I'll catch myself daydreaming and sometimes get a tiny bit confused as to how much of reality I've missed, what's real in that moment, etc.
Anyway, anybody daydream randomly sometimes? For me, the daydreams usually occur where I am or use something from reality as a base-- sort of so I can participate in my daydreams. I don't do this consciously though, and it's hard to explain . . . It's never as black-and-white as writing makes it out to be.
Thoughts, anyone?
I find myself occasionally seeing something in real life that is part of a recurring daydream and want to comment to a real person as if it was my daydream. Since in my daydream I'm a neuroscientist I am aka knowledgeable about the brain. :)
Returning to the original topic, if I may, I must say I've always tried to use the new resources computers and the Internet brought to translate some parts of my fantasies in "the real world". The first clear and embarrassing example of this was the past years when my prime daydream world was my alter-ego being a musical genius and an odd music-star (vintage sound styled), for that effect I planned the band's albums and singles list (with songs by great artist that I just pretended she had created...), the titles, what the covers would be... also planned the tours and the track-lists... and even their official website, which I clumsily tried to assemble.
Right now, my daydreaming is divided within 2 main worlds or settings: the main and recurring one, even when it goes through dramatic changes of co-star, setting or year, as my alter-ego is the element of continuity that makes it the same world (an evolution of the music-star era, where I'm a big genius of Astrophysics, which led me this summer to watch a lot of documentaries on that field and buy a couple of Stephen Hawking's books, but it's good, because I had always been interested in those topis but never had done anything about it, so I'm actually grateful); and the relatively recent one, based in the lives of monarchs and nobility in the XIX and early XX century in my own created Island (and independent State or country) in the heart of the English Channel. The new one has made me research about life in that era, about succession rules, about instrumental marriage... but also “made me” create a huge, massive genealogy tree with a software tool that relates all that people since the Middle Ages... I dedicated it so much time since last year, and still do to rectify something or making changes... and to think of it makes me feel bad, that I've spent so much time working (but never ignoring my obligations, I procrastinate but I get it done in the end) on something that doesn't exist. Well at least I have the consolations that 1. I'm a control freak and so I need to try obtain some mental order in the chaos that it's my mind, and “writing it down” helps feeling better 2. I'm actually disguising that daydream world as a writing project, the excuse was that all the daydreaming and the world-building was the first phase of the process, but more than a year has passed and I've written nothing really of the story itself, I mean, I've written a lot about the world or how things work there at all levels, but my interest in writing the actual story is moderate at most, I have a ball just with the world-building and the different and never ending daydreams set there (there's a potential one for every “person” registered in the family tree, I've already involuntarily come with more than 10, so the possibilities are endless and would feed my fantasies for life if I never lose interest in this world).
So yes, all this to state that I've done embarrassing things to make my daydreams more “real”.
P.S. I'm sorry for the Biblical length of my post.
The internet provides amazing new ways to build worlds that I could never done 20 years ago. I find the hard line between pretending to be a brilliant neuroscientist and then realizing I don't understand 80 percent of current articles on the topic - and I can hardly be brilliant. I have an Iphone and have a secret photo stash showin my wardrobe, furnishings, people, etc. Have a playlist of songs I sing since 'I' am a jazz vocalist on top of all this brilliant work. And recently married the head of the department of child psychiatrist in a major research university in london. All documented and sealed. No story ever written. I relive the first month over and over again adding touches and conversations and storylines. I'm trying to design the two story penthouse we buy in London. I have an incredible trust fund.
Ana Suau said:
Returning to the original topic, if I may, I must say I've always tried to use the new resources computers and the Internet brought to translate some parts of my fantasies in "the real world". The first clear and embarrassing example of this was the past years when my prime daydream world was my alter-ego being a musical genius and an odd music-star (vintage sound styled), for that effect I planned the band's albums and singles list (with songs by great artist that I just pretended she had created...), the titles, what the covers would be... also planned the tours and the track-lists... and even their official website, which I clumsily tried to assemble.
Right now, my daydreaming is divided within 2 main worlds or settings: the main and recurring one, even when it goes through dramatic changes of co-star, setting or year, as my alter-ego is the element of continuity that makes it the same world (an evolution of the music-star era, where I'm a big genius of Astrophysics, which led me this summer to watch a lot of documentaries on that field and buy a couple of Stephen Hawking's books, but it's good, because I had always been interested in those topis but never had done anything about it, so I'm actually grateful); and the relatively recent one, based in the lives of monarchs and nobility in the XIX and early XX century in my own created Island (and independent State or country) in the heart of the English Channel. The new one has made me research about life in that era, about succession rules, about instrumental marriage... but also “made me” create a huge, massive genealogy tree with a software tool that relates all that people since the Middle Ages... I dedicated it so much time since last year, and still do to rectify something or making changes... and to think of it makes me feel bad, that I've spent so much time working (but never ignoring my obligations, I procrastinate but I get it done in the end) on something that doesn't exist. Well at least I have the consolations that 1. I'm a control freak and so I need to try obtain some mental order in the chaos that it's my mind, and “writing it down” helps feeling better 2. I'm actually disguising that daydream world as a writing project, the excuse was that all the daydreaming and the world-building was the first phase of the process, but more than a year has passed and I've written nothing really of the story itself, I mean, I've written a lot about the world or how things work there at all levels, but my interest in writing the actual story is moderate at most, I have a ball just with the world-building and the different and never ending daydreams set there (there's a potential one for every “person” registered in the family tree, I've already involuntarily come with more than 10, so the possibilities are endless and would feed my fantasies for life if I never lose interest in this world).
So yes, all this to state that I've done embarrassing things to make my daydreams more “real”.
P.S. I'm sorry for the Biblical length of my post.
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