Does this count as MDD?

[riavjvrj]

So I read some of the posts before making an account but I didn't see any that described my problem exactly
In my daydreams, sure, everyone likes me or whatever, I'm an ideal person, so it's maladaptive in a way
Except, in them, my life isn't perfect- I'll always have some depressing story, like I'll have seen my parents been murdered, or my brother will have PTSD then fail at suicide and lose his memory, and I can't let him remember I exist because if he knows I exist he'll get PTSD again and kill himself; 
I won't be bullied, or have a lack of friends or anything, but I'll always have some terrible past in the daydreams, and I haven't had anything so depressing happen in real life
I've been daydreaming a lot less than usual, but I looked up the site because while I imagine these scenarios slightly less than before, there will be times when I'll have an extremely good day, and I'll be really happy, and then I'll be in my last class of the day, which I btw enjoy a lot, and then for less than a second I'll just have a flash of whatever the last thing I imagined was, and then suddenly I'll be extremely depressed again, and my day will be ruined, I'll be stuck in a bad mood the entire day
I always used to daydream a lot, but it was never depressing scenes like what I've been imagining for a while
What I remember is, I would never really dream a lot, mainly daydream, and if I did dream it would only ever be nightmares. I stopped having dreams altogether when I was 8- It's not that I didn't remember my dreams, I just never dreamed, perhaps because I already did enough of it during the day
Since then, on the rare occasion, maybe like twice a year, that I dream, it won't even be a dream, it'll just be like a single extremely fuzzy/blurry image that I'll see for a while and that'll be it
It's not nightmares, but it freaks me out anyways just because it's so unusual for me to ever dream
And then with daydreams, if I wanted to, I could choose not to daydream, to do something else, but I never stop myself, and I don't know why I seem to enjoy forcing myself to imagine these things, when all they do is make me sad
Since I don't imagine a perfect life for myself, I'm not even sure whether I should call it maladaptive daydreaming, but this was pretty much all I could find on daydreaming when I looked it up
If someone does have the same case, please tell me, because I have no idea how I should feel about it and whether its even maladaptive day dreaming

[Meg Sheath]

Hi! 

I can relate. Yes, you probably do have MD. Just becuase your daydreams are depressing doesnt mean its not maladaptive. I daydreams about very violent and depressing things, but I still have the main character who is,in a way, a idealized version of myself. He is usaully the one who is getting all of the bad luck and pian or cuasing it. I never really had anything really bad happen to me, even though I said in one of my posts about moving and my father being depressed. As a 9 year old, you dont really understand whats really going on until you get older and do, so no trauma there.  There is also a good group on here called Negative Daydreamers so you can check that out. 

I dont dream alot either. I usually do this weird thing where I wake up in the morning and start to daydream. Then when I really go to sleep, I start to dream dreams really vivid and crazy. I think its because in the morning Im in a  vivid daydream but then when I fall just a little asleep Im still in "daydream mode". So i have no control of what happens. I dont really consider this sleeping because i have the power to wake up whenever I want,but the plot is so weird I stay interested.

As for never stopping yourself from daydreaming, I do the same almost the same thing. When I want to stop, my daydreams almost happen subconsciously, so there is no stopping it. Its like breathing. I cant just say NO STOP and it will stop. I have to be at least distracted.  If you want to talk more about it, you can send me a message any time.