Confused, need opinions

[LeAnn Marcum]

 I have certainly gotten my MD under control. I usually just DD when I'm listening to music now. I can't really tell you why it stopped, but I can tell you how it happened. And it makes me question if it was really MD at all.

 When I was in middle school, I would always dream about doing something that nobody had done before. One of them was writing a book about going on an adventure that was totally unrealistic. I wanted to awe people and make them think, "Wow, this really happened? I thought it was fiction!"

 So I picked a story plot to use that was from an anime I watched, and picked people from my reality (classmates) to use in my fantasy. But I didn't just want to DD about them, I wanted to make it real. I wanted to make this happen, and write a book and say it actually happened.

 Then when I reached high school, I realized that it wasn't going to happen because it was totally unrealistic. But I was still emotionally attached to one of the characters (which was also a person in real life) from my fantasy. I was obsessed with her until I realized that I was emotionally attached to the fantasy version of her and not the real version of her.

 So was it all just the last of my childhood dreams before I grew up? Or was it actually MD?

[M Hunter]

It's hard to say if it is MD or not considering there is no solid way of diagnosing MD and as people's experiences vary it's hard to objectively state what is MD and what isn't.

Perhaps your need to fantasize stemmed from some kind of subconscious desire. You mentioned dreaming about something that was never done before. You wanted to be the person to accomplish that and that became your main focus. It could be a product of MD or it could have just been a really strong fantasy.  Have you only been daydreaming since middle school or before? 

[LeAnn Marcum]

 I remember when it all started. I was about 11 I think... and it was when I first spent the night with my great grandmother. The next morning when I woke up, I felt like I was seeing the world in a totally different way. But it might have been the dream I had that night. I dreamed about one of the characters from my favorite anime and I was me, but I looked different. When I woke up, I couldn't stop DDing about them, and it grew into a story and I felt like I had what was missing that I didn't know was missing. Since then my fantasies have changed, but when I was in middle school was when it started to consume me. I think I had forgotten that I wanted to write the book at all and that I was under some kind of contract that I had to live how I planned out for myself.

M Hunter said:

It's hard to say if it is MD or not considering there is no solid way of diagnosing MD and as people's experiences vary it's hard to objectively state what is MD and what isn't.

Perhaps your need to fantasize stemmed from some kind of subconscious desire. You mentioned dreaming about something that was never done before. You wanted to be the person to accomplish that and that became your main focus. It could be a product of MD or it could have just been a really fantasy.  Have you only been daydreaming since middle school or before? 

[sue peake]

dear leann,

i think the actual dx of md is just a name,nothing more.its a description of a behavour that we do,it doesnt to me really matter how it happends etc....its just that for a while we ddream to a maladaptive degree,we obsess,we comfort ourselves i think.i dont know why individuals feel they need to comfort themselves as i think everybodys story is different and some it may just be they have a great imagination and need to do something with it when bored.

something else i thing doesnt help is worrying about doing it,it feeds it.like you i now only dd mainly when listening to music.however it took me almost 40yrs to get to this point.i think you have to stop worrying,see it for what it is and chill.

im just soooo sorry it took me so long.

xxx