just another sunrise without sleep

golden rays hit my cold face

doesn't make a difference

i am unhappy

momentary happiness 

comes back every now and then

makes me laugh and smile

but sadness lives inside me

wasn't this all i wanted

was it something more?

should i wait?

or should i go…

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Hi! I just found this on Reddit. And I really​ liked it so I thought that I'd share it. I'm not an optimist usually. But I'm trying to break that shell. (Sometimes you see something really glorious like sometimes in the evening the sun makes everything golden and the asphalt looks really beautiful.)



There are some roads that are closed off from you forever

There was a life that you could have lived, but no longer



But this is the life you have. This is the life you… Continue

Greetings folks!

I tried so hard. So hard to take an internet sabbatical, apparently not hard enough. I tried and I failed. Just like the last time. I try not to come here, I try and I fail. I see myself hurting my chances to a better future and yet I don't act. My existential crises in the bus rides home are so fucking short-lived, as soon as I come home, I waste time, even more time. I daydream while sitting at my desk, "10 minutes only, maybe, maybe I'll get the motivation from my…

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Hi guys, these days it's been hard. I don't know, I've been daydreaming a lot instead of studying, I've been wasting a lot of time. I resist it but I get really tired and sleep in the afternoon only to waste time on the internet in the evening, I go to bed late, I planned to watch 2 movies every weekend but that's not happening, somehow. My entire method of scheduling my day has fallen apart. I get really cranky and, just when I'm about to lash out or am in the process of doing so, an inner…

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This isn't related to Daydreaming, but it's something weird that happened over the past 3 days.

So, yesterday, at around 8:00 AM, I was going to a nearby park; to jog. On the sidewalk, I saw a frail man; dressed in rags; shivering. The man called out to me and said that he has a fever and asked me to get him some paracetamol. I obliged but at 8:00 AM, the drugstores weren't open. So, I had to get some from my house. I ran to my house and my mom freaked out and told me not to go to the…

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