Does Anyone Resonate With This?

[SA]

I am a maladaptive daydreamer from Asia. 23 years of age. I believe I have cured a decent chunk of my MD as I have felt being in the here and now many times as my alive and truer self has come to the fore. 

I woke up in 2024. My MD was about not being who I truly was due to the atmosphere not being accepting of that self, be it school and especially my household. I live in a narcissistic family cult. Here, the patriarch of the family, my father, who is a grandiose narcissist has assigned roles to everyone and you are bound to play within those roles or you are labelled as a scapegoat. 
I am a proud scapegoat of this shitty household, which equates The Modern and Beautiful Islamic religion to oppression.

I spent the entire 2024 honoring the self I buried back in my teenage. I pissed my family off, spoke when I was angry and preserved my basic sense of self and respect. I also processed many of the repressed emotions by being with those feelings or acting them out in real life. It was destructive at times but purifying also. 

In 2025, I am at a point where most of my daydreams are about sharing my opinions. I am now working in an organisation and trying to complete my education. I get a bit of socialization at work but I still am detached at home not because I don't want to engage. But each time I do, my role seems to make me feel as if I can't be completely me. Like just yesterday, I expressed my anger at having woken up at night and my mother expressed how I was weak and got tired due to working a job. I didn't like it. Everyone deserves rest. I am writing this for everyone to read so they can share their stories and I will definitely respond to them, to the best of my knowledge. But I also am writing this for I am struggling to find my true self. The self that feels like Home. MD is split of the self. We express what we couldn't with our ego. I have felt alive and at home each time I have socialized with someone. It was after MD that I became an extreme loner. I became really reserved. 

But each time I do that, like at work, my real life just stops matching that energy when I get home as my home life wants a role. They want me, the YOUNGEST KID, to just be happy and be talking to all of them. I can't have opinions or express anger at something. Even if they let me do it, it's out of fear and then I am the BAD GUY. So I just go silent. 

Please feel free to share your opinions!!!!

Thanks for reading!!!!

[Sergio Silveira]

I would like people to know about my book on my own personal experience with Maladaptive Daydreaming, which afflicted my life for many years and the central thing that impelled me to continually go back to it. I describe in it the method of construction and the richly detailed “reality” of daydreams, the circumstances that often triggered them, how daydreaming actually lessened my feelings for other people, and the reason for my daydreams’ “unparalleled” thrill, and why it does not last, leading to my creation of brand-new daydreams. I felt it fitting to carefully describe my own personal experience with Maladaptive Daydreaming in the form of a novel with aspects of fantasy, since it was fantasy what I spent so much of my life immersed in, and through the experience of a fictional character, who is in so many ways different from me, but shares my own experience and journey out of Maladaptive Daydreaming.

It is available on Amazon! A Breathtaking Life Lived in Daydreams: A Novel About Daydreaming

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[vasya]

omg i never thought that families can be THAT crazy. man. you should definitely just get a job, and move out to rental apartment and live alone, or co-rent with a friend.