MD & ADHD

[Kris]

Hello there!

Is there anyone out there who struggles with ADHD? 

Because I've been wondering if the things I'm experiencing are are actually ADHD or not lately (for like three years now lol). I've done some research, talked to a school therapist and people with this disorder and I'm confused asf. 

Sometimes I feel like I might actually have it, sometimes I feel like I'm just imagining things and other times I'm somewhat in-between those two stages, wondering what the hell is actually wrong with me.

As a kid I've been told that I'm too loud, too energetic, too impulsive. Almost every day I had a note from my teachers that I forgot a homework or a notebook or something. In middle school this developed into self-hate, constantly feeling like I'm not good enough and even to selfharm, slight eating disorder and suicidal thoughts. I went quiet, I was anxious and moody a lot. I didn't want to speak up until necessary, didn't rise a hand in school even when I knew the answer and constantly feared that I'm talking too much. I feel that even now btw xd.

But I always managed to have almost perfect grades, I graduated with straight A's. That's why the school therapist suggested that I don't need to be diagnosed.

I'm thinking of reaching out to a professional, who'll hopefully actually tell me what's wrong if anything is, because I feel like even though my mental health is getting better, I could still use the help in certain areas.

Is it a good idea or am I just overreacting and it'd be a waste of time?

Thanks for all responses and for reading this till the end.

Love,

Kristy

[Rosário]

Oi Kristy, acho que buscar a ajuda de um profissional é uma ótima ideia. Lá você pode contar sobre suas queixas, e pedir que seja feita uma avaliação psicológica com aplicação de testes psicológicos. O teste de TDAH é bem preciso, já tira essa dúvida e fica mais em paz ❤️

[Elaine]

Hey Kristy! I totally have ADHD, and I'm TOTALLY a compulsive daydreamer. I haven't seen anyone else describe what I call "the workshop", which I guess is a dissociative state? Like how the creator of this site was hardly ever NOT daydreaming, I can always hop in the workshop in my mind and just look over things.

Are you a creative person? I am, but I've been pursuing science since high school. The workshop is related to that compartmentalization, where science and reality are on one end and fantasy and creativity are on the other, but it's not quite binary. Idk! It's complex.

It's most like the sensation that your watching yourself as if in a dream. I can get a little disoriented if I DON'T do that for a while. Like, I need to zoom out on google maps and examine the Earth to get my bearings in my city, if that makes sense.

If it's causing you problems, then it's a problem/disorder/condition. If it's not causing you too many problems, then it's just a thing you do. That's what I think.