Getting a grip on reality

[Varya]

I'm 23 years old (and it horrifies me). For as long as I can remember i had an overactive imagination. I don'tknow when exactly i started using it as a way to cope with sadness, anger or boredom. Long story short, at 18 i started actually taking responsibility for my life. It changed my view on myself and led to some realisations. Among other things i understood that i spend waay to much time in imaginary worlds. It is unproductive. It damages my life and my relationship with other people. So i stopped. It wasn't even that hard - i was so full of hope that i can finally make my life the way i wanted it to be. But i failed. And i slowly fell back into my old ways - procrastination, binge eating and good old daydreaming. Which got worse - at least in school years my fantasies were more interesting. So, moving on to now. I got my wake up call recently. I met a guy, who had an astonishing ability to see through the facade and ask the right questions. He really got through to me. He saw all the pain i was keeping inside, all of the ways i sabotage myself. And he showed it to me. So i made a decision to change things, as much as i can. After that i saw a video about maladaptive daydreaming. And i understood that if i want to make a change i can't ignore it anymore. So i decided to quit, at all costs. I'm not as naive, as i was before. I know how hard it is to change established patterns of thinking. That's why I'm here. I want to find support and learn from other people's experiences.

[Xyz]

Same i have thought of changing but then now i feel like i have an emotional attachement to my para, am aware it would be a wise choice to leave this daydreaming behind but then it feels good to feel that you are recogonised and cared for.I succumb to the desires of my heart. For me prayer and I think working on my problem related to apathy would help me.