Work in progress

[Rami]

Hi, I am new here. I’ ve been doing MD since I was…I think…12 years old. I didn’t know that something like MD even existed, before I’ ve found this page. As I am learning more and more about me and things that MD supresses, everything seems to make more sence. I’ll appreciate every help I can get here. I am still not fully recovered, yet I now know, that going back is not the right way (despite it being so easy to return to my old habits). I am open to everyone, who would like to talk in private and share their expierence too. 

[Jessica Ballantyne]

I was an MD'er since 12, as well. If you're thinking of quitting, please do. I seriously should not daydream. Just today, I was sipping a drink and thinking about a verse in a movie or novel. My sister came over to notice our puppy pooped and peed all over the place, in front of me, while I was in a maze. She only assumed what I was up to, and cleaned it up, talking to me like I was an idiot. I was in a really bad mood for the rest of the evening. I've been told a million times and should know better than to dream during the day. When you must be alive and awake in the world. I've met a great deal of people who didn't appreciate that I did this, especially when it came to responsibilities. Like they thought I was on planet Zuton. What hurts more, I honestly don't think they even liked me as a person. And perhaps thought I was crazy or completely stupid. Moreover, I was a very quiet individual, so I was able to conceal my MD ways to most of anyone, unless it bled out somehow.Throughout the pandemic I lost contact with people, as I have been working remotely since 2020. So it's not as if I've been physically hearing wild criticisms and lashing over me not paying attention to real "happenings" and "mentioning" all around me. It makes me feel relieved and free that I can do whatever I want in my own privacy.