Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
Some people abuse drugs to deal with life
... Other people daydream
So I have this wonderful(sarcasm) older brother that at the moment is doing heroin. Like big time, waste your life away, can't live with out it, heroin addiction. I, being the soulless little "good child" I am, am starting to get really annoyed with my brothers inability to deal with life in a normal way.
So lets just do a little recap of from Christmas to now:
Brother gets dumped by psycho girlfriend
She get a restraining order for him
She comes to his place
She calls the cops after they get in (another) fight
Brother goes to jail
Grandma bales him out
Brother spends 3 days trying to get off heroin at a ski resort
Crappy snow, no skiing, we go home
Brother gets charges dropped
Brother spends $300 trusty trust fund bucks on my drugs
Brother spends $500 trust fund bucks on my drugs
Brother tries out detox for a whole 6 hours!
Brother is currently have an emotional break down that our grandma has to take care of because my mother is useless and sucks at being a mom.
I just don't get it. My WHOLE LIFE I have sat and watched my brother destroy his life. He has had all the support we can give him. Professional help. But nope. He would rather do drugs and go into constant ALL CAPS RAGES, over everything.
I get it. He had a bad childhood. So did I. Me both have the same mother. We both had to be raised by her. What I don't get is why he lets that destroy him. Why does he still crave her love and attention, while I turned my back on her and rejected her?
Why can't he just go out, buy an ipod, a good book, and Daydream his worries away. I do it and my life is wonderful! No one has to worry that you'll die because its all in your head. Do it right and people will even think you're normal and weren't forever scared my your childhood.
Ugh. Sorry.I had to rant.
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