Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I am so happy because I just figured out that I'm not totally crazy. Maybe a little, but that is ok by me.
My name is Kristen, I'm 19, and I just learned about MD today! I've looked online before for evidience that I wasn't the only one that paces their room pretending to go to hogwarts. haha that sounds super weird. I really thought I had a mild case of Schizophrenia, but I don't, so that is good. Now I've found a community of freindly people that don't think I'm a freak for doing what I do.
A little about my daydreams:
I don't DD in public. I don't DD when anyone is in my house. I proud to say no one has ever seen me DD, ever.
Reading up a little I learned that most people pace like I do and that is one reason why I would never do unless alone. I also listen to music when I do it. When I was little I could do daydream in bed or in the car. But its weird because now I have to be standing with ipod in hand. If I ever felt that I needed to stop the habbit all I would need to do is leave my ipod at my freinds house or something. that is how reliant I am on music. Can't day dream with out it.
My" triggers", as they're called I believe, are books, a few TV shows and movies made from books. When I was little I could make up whole worlds and plots. I could make up people out of the blue and react with them. Now I've lost that creativity I guess. But thats ok because now I have a kindle and I can just use other author's stories. For some reason I feel uncomfortable sharing what the stories are though. Weird.
I don't think I can call my case of MD a disorder though. I learned in psych that it has it effect 2 areas of your life to fall into that catigory . Mine doesn't so much. I'm a social girl, I have lost of friends, I go to college, I have a(kinda) clean house, I participate in events related to my hobbies. But when I'm alone I do nothing but daydream.
Its really great to find an online community for people like me though. Even my closest friend doesn't know I do this. I would rather die then tell her. Hell, my therepist dosen't even know. Haha.
Maybe I just have a mild case or something. I'm sure I do it more than normal. When I lived at home in high school I would wake up at 4 am to DD after going to sleep at 1. the wee hours of the morning were the only time I could. In middle school and like my freshman year I would do it as school. I soon figured out I was missing out on a lot, so I stopped the public thing. Now I don't get how people can do it in public. I'll hike and DD but there is only a dog around me. If I were to start in like a fred meyer's I don't think I could multitaske and buy food while DDing.
Haha I don't know if I'm powerful its just my public self image is morea little important than the need to DD right there.
Hello and welcome Kristen !
Hope you have a lot of fun:)
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