I'm Not Schizo!

[Kristen]

I am so happy because I just figured out that I'm not totally crazy. Maybe a little, but that is ok by me.

My name is Kristen, I'm 19, and I just learned about MD today! I've looked online before for evidience that I wasn't the only one that paces their room pretending to go to hogwarts. haha that sounds super weird. I really thought I had a mild case of Schizophrenia, but I don't, so that is good. Now I've found a community of freindly people that don't think I'm a freak for doing what I do.

 

A little about my daydreams:

I don't DD in public. I don't DD when anyone is in my house. I proud to say no one has ever seen me DD, ever.

Reading up a little I learned that most people pace like I do and that is one reason why I would never do unless alone. I also listen to music when I do it. When I was little I could do daydream in bed or in the car. But its weird because now I have to be standing with ipod in hand. If I ever felt that I needed to stop the habbit all I would need to do is leave my ipod at my freinds house or something. that is how reliant I am on music. Can't day dream with out it.

My" triggers", as they're called I believe, are books, a few TV shows and movies made from books. When I was little I could make up whole worlds and plots. I could make up people out of the blue and react with them. Now I've lost that creativity I guess. But thats ok because now I have a kindle and I can just use other author's stories. For some reason I feel uncomfortable sharing what the stories are though. Weird.

 

I don't think I can call my case of MD a disorder though. I learned in psych that it has it effect 2 areas of your life to fall into that catigory . Mine doesn't so much. I'm a social girl, I have lost of friends, I go to college, I have a(kinda) clean house, I participate in events related to my hobbies. But when I'm alone I do nothing but daydream.

 

Its really great to find an online community for people like me though. Even my closest friend doesn't know I do this. I would rather die then tell her. Hell, my therepist dosen't even know. Haha.

 

 

 

[Kristen]

Maybe I just have a mild case or something. I'm sure I do it more than normal. When I lived at home in high school I would wake up at 4 am to DD after going to sleep at 1. the wee hours of the morning were the only time I could. In middle school and like my freshman year I would do it as school. I soon figured out I was missing out on a lot, so I stopped the public thing. Now I don't get how people can do it in public. I'll hike and DD but there is only a dog around me. If I were to start in like a fred meyer's I don't think I could multitaske and buy food while DDing. 

 Haha I don't know if I'm powerful its just my public self image is morea little  important than the need to DD right there.

[Kristen]

Thanks everyone. Finding this out has really lifted a weight off me.  I was very worried it was schizophrenia before, because I read it would get worst as I got older. I figured one day I would loose my grip on reality. But now I know I can live life as I have been, without later repercussions. I work to remember I have a great real life, with great friends and that they can be beter then the things I make up alone. Thank you every one for being very support. Its great to know I'm not alone.

[stranger in a strange land]

Hi, Kristen! I feared I was schizophrenic too and it was a relief when it turned out that wasnt the case :) hope you stay strong and contiue your DD without any effect to your life.

[Riley]

Hello and welcome Kristen !

Hope you have a lot of fun:)

[Laila]

Hey Kristen, and welcome! Yeah, it's always a big relief to realize we're not alone. You'll find a lot of people to relate to here. Hope you have fun here, and I'm looking forward to getting to know you more. :D