Where wild minds come to rest
These so-called regular people, the ones who do not daydream so much. What do they think about all day. I can't imagine. I've only ever had my daydreams. They have always been there
It is difficult to imagine processing a life event (big or small) without projecting it to a made up character, weaving it into the rich tapestry of their made-up lives.
It's not all them, I can quieten them if I really need to. Sometimes it's hard and the biggest disruption is when trying to sleep.
I'm not looking for advice, I don't feel sad, it's just a curiosity of how other people think. Kind of thinking out loud.
I asked my boyfriend, but he's different too. Very fixated on his passion for writing code, he has very few relationships with people and a very low tolerance for any social situations he considers inefficient.
So I tried to ask people, I get a blank stare or bland answers, what to have for the evening meal, what happened on some TV show. OK sure I define a good movie by how long I think about it after viewing but it does not occupy much of my thoughts. Hmm never thought about this before but I actually always reflect on the experience as just me.
Could it be that people don't want to be in their own head, but how do they deal with the emptiness in times alone when travelling. Possibly they just don't think too deeply about what they think about. Also, it is a very personal question to ask someone and if someone asks me I tell them some bland answer too.
I just can't imagine what life is like without daydreaming or what people think about or how they reflect and process. How to be inspired to research something, for me it is because it affects my character. Or I may go someplace for a more vivid sense of their experiences. They debate each other and I need material for that as I made them smart, smarter than I can keep up with.
This is an odd way to live a life for sure and if I were not so deeply introverted I would probably drive myself crazy.
I'm not part of my own imaginary world, there is no idealized self that is direct representation of me, I'm there only an observer. Sure I project my opinions and personality on to them. Real Life interaction is just so exhausting, even my boyfriend wears me out mentally and he is as introverted as me.
Maybe one of my MDD people will become MDD, I can see that happening.