trapped

[mary g]

wowo its been such a long time ive come here . almost a month.. ihave to type fast cuz if mom sees me on the computer and not studying shell scream at me...
the last 2 months have been the most difficult months of my life.. in college i failed for 5 subjects..i couldnt face my classmates after that. evryone knew i had failed because the professors read out the name of failures in the class...
my mom was furious with me... now im under 24 hr surveillance by her ..
i feel so fed up and frustrated .. everyone thinks im dumb and not intelligent cuz i failed but thats not the case......
its my md.. i cant concentrate because of it, i tried to tell mom but she wont understand...
at the beginning i had lots of hopes and dreams for myself but now they are all gooooooooonnne.....
i only have one dream one hope that is to pass for all my exams nothing more than that....
i have been reduced to such apathetic state , i hate myself. the way i look and talk, the fact that im a failure and a pathetic loser,, god cant u see me suffer please help me how long will this last...
i keep telling myself if winter is here can spring be far behind.......... but its been snowing forever and the rays of the sunlight have been hidden behind the clouds for so long,,,,will i ever receive a tiny ray of hope ?? my future is so bleak...
i feel trappped in a prison want to escape i have to ... keep going on somehow be strong despiote alll the odds .....god help mee

[Waq]

I will second Bee Anchor. 

[Bee Anchor]

Because of my MD i bare-passed all my courses , sometimes failed for  my degree which was extremely demanding. But I graduated within the allotted time.

I went back years after to do the masters program ib the same field / institution and aced it (still with MD) . Here are some tips:

1) Study in a public area e.g. library. Do not study in your bedroom!

2) Stay away from mp3 players etc.

3)Review each class as soon as it is finished.

4) Tell yourself you are going to study for 5 minutes - then take a break..you will cover more work this way...

[Robert M. Laramee]

I was 25 years old in 1990 when I went to college. I only stayed 3 1/2 weeks. My grades were perfect but I could not handle the pressure or the stress that it caused so I left. It was a lesson learned. The production demand were too great and the resources were too few. I still have some homework that I do on my own time. Live your own life. Don't let your dreams become nightmares. This moment will pass and in 25 years you can look back.

[Rosethewolf]

I am in your situation now. I am a college student with MD and combined ADHD but I am passing my class ( I am in an easy community college) and my controlling mother wants me to be in a field that I have no interest in and it is very hard course for me. I just sit there and stare blankly hoping that the teacher won't call on me.

My hopes and dreams were shattered when I entered college. I spent most of my live daydreaming and thinking about my life unrealistically and then I finally step into the adult world and I am clueless on what to do.