Where wild minds come to rest
Last night I came clean to my husband about my fantasies. He kept prying to get an answer as to why I cry all the time and what is going on with me. Finally I gave in and told him..mostly everything. How I daydream constantly..how Captain Hook is not just a character on a movie to me, but someone close to my heart..how when he gets swollowed by the crocodile I feel depressed and grieve for him as if I have known him in my real life. How in my head, he's a real person and I've formed a realtionship with him..although, the one thing I couldn't admit is I have romantic feelings for Hook..but somehow I think he already knew that. Surprisingly he understood. He was very gentle and loving when talking to me and helping with suggestions. He told me anytime I need to talk about it he's here for me and even if it's in the middle of the night he'll listen. He even took the day off work today to take me and the kids out..and it actually helped a lot. We went to few stores to walk around.. to dinner and got ice cream..I found myself starting to fantasize about Captain Hook..but I kept stopping myself and trying to ignore it. It takes a lot of work and determination to keep myself from fantasizing. I did daydream today but not as much as I usually do. My husband even went as far as pointing at a clock in the store and saying "Hey look a clock, we should smash it!" jokingly =) It really made me feel better..that he understand and just talking about it to someone helped. Today was a good day. I just hope it's not a temporary thing..and that it eventually gets easier to control.