Three different worlds, and none is real

[Julie]

When I was 6, my parents were talking about a person, who won a lottery. This person could buy probably everything she wanted. And I had a dream: to win a lottery and rent a spaceship. My mom was laughing, saying that no matter, how much money you had, you would never be in space. Ironically, today we have space tourists.

 

Now, I have established 3 layers of dreams, all making me sad.

 

First layer dreams: realistic but hard to achieve

 

When I was 14, I was daydreaming most of the day. Our little town in the middle of nowhere seemed really shitty and poor, people seemed stupid and all their daily routines and problems were absurd. I was seeing myself at the age of 25, living in a capital city, having a boyfriend, having good job, being promoted, delivering business presentations, having own flat, a good car, travelling without limits and so on. Not a very rich person, but totally independent and confident. And I was "talking" to ex Minister of Finance and travelling across the US.

 

Now, I'm 26 and all of above has materialized (except the spaceship, obviously), but strange things were happening. I live in a capital city, but my dreams are bringing me now to another place. When being with my boyfriend, I was thinking about Minister of Finance and how he "made"  Polish economy strong. (No need to tell, that this made my boyfriend angry and confused - "I would understand if you were thinking about a rock star or an athlete... but a finance guy, who's almost 60...") When I was participating at university lectures by that Minister, I was thinking about travelling across the US. When travelling across the US, I was thinking about living in a good flat. When signing a documents for the flat, I was thinking about driving... endless circle. In April I exchanged a few words with Roger Waters, not a conversation, but still enough to kill another dream. This summer I'm going to cross Switzerland on bike... and I know I will be disappointed. Maybe, I won't go, not to kill another beautiful dream, I've lived through last two years. 

 

Second layer dreams: realistic but VERY hard to achieve

 

Information, information, information. Learning. I thought, I was addicted to Internet, but I'm not. Just addicted to dreaming, and Internet is a source of information to complete the dream. I don't know why, but approximately every 3 or 4 months I get a new obsession, usually related to music. I used to watch a documentary about a Swiss ski jumper Walter Steiner and became obsessed with ski jumping (which is quite popular in Poland, anyway :)). That man was saying so unbelievable things in interview, that I was imagining myself talking to him and then watching the jumps, and jumping myself. And I had to learn a lot about him and ski jumping to have a good "conversation". Or, I was "watching" Jimmy Page in occult extasy, after thorough learning about the occult. Then I watched a documentary about 1977 punk revolution and was "talking" to Johnny Rotten. Again, I ordered 5 books related to the topic to run a good conversation.And Roger Waters, whom I "saw" in 1977, depressed and ashamed, talking about the concept of The Wall. This took so much time, that I had to limit social interactions to minimum.

 

Third layer: not realistic

 

I'm obsessed with Swinging London, all that 60s fashion, super models, movies, music, design. Reading and reading about it. I imagine myself in London, 1966. Syd Barrett didn't get crazy, the Beatles are still singing, Jane Shrimpton is beautiful "little miss sad one",  Emma Peel is in leather, and they had sex in Blow-up, not just kissing and hugging. I don't know how this dream starts, but when it does, it lasts a few days, when I'm spending all my time in Internet and "prompting" my thinking with information and visuals. I have to take days off at work, when I feel this state appears. Luckily, my boss is very understanding and doesn't ask, why I need an urgent break.

Then it disappears, for next few months, when I think about it not too often. I don't know what triggers this - usually some information about 60s fashion or music. Sometimes, I can control it, sometimes I can't.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Paulina]

Well, this is pretty much how my life goes.

First of all - it's so nice to see another person from Poland in here :) Cześć :)

Second of all - it's so wonderful you're fulfilling your fantasies from childhood! I do it as well, but because I'm still "only" 21 I can say I'm in the middle of it. But, as you do, when I made one of my dream come true there's another one in my mind. And exactly like you - I had and have so many obsessions in my life and they change so fat! In generall I'm obsessed with volleyball and tennis and british culture and I read plenty of books (which give me plenty of thinks I can daydream about). These are my constant obsessions but I have dozens smaller "hobbies".

For example - because of the Royal Wedding my last daydreams are all about Prince Harry...

Another thing we have in common - when I daydream about some well known peaople (which is I think about 90% of my daydreams) it's always daydream about talking with them (that makes me whisper to myself, mostly when I'm alone, but it happened several times in public... ).

[Jane Wilson]

"As a man thinks in his heart so is he" while this is in proverbs, it has been verified by various studies.  It works like this, you see yourself accomplishing a goal in the future.  All of your decisions from that point forward are examined under will this further my goal?  If not ? Out it goes!  The key is seeing yourself as accomplishing that goal.  This also works on physical tasks, studies have shown that an just thinking about a task , performing it correctly - has the almost same effect as actual physical practice.  (Can not build muscles this way).  The mind is an amazing thing.  As being curious or overly focused on certain information.  I found turning it into a database/journal/report is helpful and at least puts it in useful form for future retrevial. 

[Danielle]

Dear God. I swear when I read this post I felt like I was reading the journal of a future me. Only, my layers are altered versions of yours.

 

The first layer is exactly how I'm living right now. I'm fourteen [fifteen in two weeks - hooray!:D] and I daydream so hard it consumes me. I'm procrastinating right now, in fact. I do live in a small town and the drama in it is so trivial to me. I want more, bigger and better things. I've had a long-running daydream of myself in my twenties [no specific age], living in [as you say] a capital city, on the verge of dating my best friend [a dude - sadly, not real, at this moment], working my way up the corporate ladder [towards owning my own electronics company], and travelling the world.

I really do hope I get to that point one day, but only time will tell.

 

Your second layer, also describes me. Only, I'm addicted to both the internet and daydreaming. Both of which egg each other on. And I have an obsession every few weeks, to be honest. It's not just music though. Usually it's a man [Simon Baker was the latest], a song [Black Sheep by Metric], or a subject [currently, Royals in general- and not just because of the Royal Wedding but because I watched the King's Speech a few days ago and it peaked my interest].

 

The third is the one that I usually only go to when I'm feeling angry or empowered. Only it's not the past. It's a world where I rule. I have strange super powers that allow me to control the elements, people's minds, and other vital things. 

 

This was really incredible for me. I feel like I stumbled onto a different version of my life. Thanks. :]