Romance in the age of uncertainty.

[varghese e david]

I thought I can leave here (Dubai)without any grief .But it is life with all of its unpredictability,I like that at certain level at least its aesthetics of  possibilities.we should be angry when someone trying to ruin our dream.Accidents are not accidents it is a chain of actions explode at  a particular moment.

we trust others as our brain trained(by evolution?) to be believed some prototypes.I always thought we must resolve  the ambiguity in life to find a workable solution,and i do.Lesson:dont wait anything for the last moment,tackle them next moment.

I think, we have to doubt our gut (Intuitiveness) to choose some of life's good decisions.I signed this company's offer letter with 'wow'feeling when they accept my demand too.Most  of our steady decisions come from where?(is there any chemical hit happens that says you are doing right?)or our past experience or someone else.its funny thinking like this lol

This is night 8 PM,and no one at room,whether suicide or hurt myself(i usually do hurt in the past myself to relieve from ....)

my ticket is ready and families are waiting there,Shall i tell to my wife this situation over phone?

i hate this guessing system.

ok let's see is there any other alternatives are waiting for me.

be cool and distract all of your(mine)hopeless thought into Romance.(Romance required plenty of money now)

Fantacy is longest  bridge to avoid a sea of depressed moments to reach the safe destination.there is no sin and guilty feeling if it is for a time being.I love that!!!!

 

and it is wonderful idea that we can post it on our desirable time.

So it will be on 24 /1/2012,4:30 PM (Indian Time)when I reach at home.

What happens when we share our grief with others is it dissolves a little.I quit to pray as I feel it is self deception so long ago

So Icannot do that.Luckily I can share to you.

Now I can leave without any grief .Thanks!!!

 

 

 

 

[greyartist]

Continue to share here, don't hurt yourself. Getting it out in a safe place like this site will help.

[Jenna]

Do not hurt yourself!!! Personally I've had thoughts before about cutting myself(I haven't before, but have consider it), but I just pick up a pen and write or draw. It will make you feel better. Trust me.