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Negative Daydreams II

Malcolm X is following me everywhere. He's breathing down my neck. He's interrogating me about my religion. He keeps interrupting me. He says he doesn't respect me. I think he doesn't respect me because I'm different. We're watching feminist porn. He says what's the difference between that and regular porn. I try to explain to him that for one thing with feminist porn the women are the producers and more importantly they have orgasms whereas in regular porn the women are faking it. He keeps cutting me off and asking me over and over and over again what the difference is between feminist porn and regular porn. I finally give up and say I don't know because I'm not a feminist. He laughs and mocks me and declares, oh so now you're not a feminist. I ruminate and say I never was.

He doesn't respect my religious beliefs. He keeps asking me what the difference is between me and everyone else. I'm in a Catch-22: if I say the different ways I'm different from the norm, then he says "Okay Ms. Different" and "why do you have to be different from everyone else?" But if I say I not different, he says "then why was this new religion even formulated/invented" and "Islam is very different from Christianity." All in all he says "I don't see the point of your religion. I think it's just a way of feeling better." Duh! Religion brings comfort!

Malcolm X is sitting here right now asking me to read what I'm writing out loud. He wants to get to know me. He wants to be a father figure in my life. He wants me to go to one of his meetings. He keeps saying "why not?" He's being a pest.

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Comment by Sandra on February 13, 2014 at 6:47pm: I am not a physician. Physicians are not always right anyway. Has the person that diagnosed you heard of MD? If you feel like you aren't, there may be something to that. Was they're a point in time where you took your prescription 100% like you were supposed to? Did you feel better? If something isn't working, try something else. If a doctor isn't working for you, try someone else. Good luck

Comment by aprelle on February 13, 2014 at 8:47am: Thanks for responding. I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I just find it hard to believe. For one thing, I know Malcolm X is dead and that he's not really here talking to me. It feels realistic but I know it's just my imagination. He represents something to me, something I've experienced and noticed in society that I find intimidating. So do you really think I'm schizophrenic?

Comment by KwanKwan on February 10, 2014 at 1:29pm: Ok, this is past a "Maladaptive Daydreaming" symptom; this is now in schizophrenic territory. Maladaptive daydreamers to not confuse reality with fantasy. We do not bring our characters to reality, we 'go' to their's in our mind (aka imagination).

I am not a doctor or a medical professional but what you typed honestly sounds like Schizophrenia; the way you two are openly discussing things, the fact that this dead man is giving you religious advice and berating you for yours sounds a lot like when people talk about "voices telling them what to do" and they can't get rid of them.

Good news is, most psychologists see Schizophrenia as a real disorder (unlike MDD) so it should be easy to get treatment and help for it. My suggestion to you is get help ASAP before 'Malcolm X' tells you to kill a bunch of Christians...