Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I can't express how good it is to know I'm not alone with MD. I only a couple of days ago found a name for my excessive daydreaming.
I started daydreaming a lot when I was about 8 years old, acting out things from books, off the TV and what I saw in everyday life. I couldn't go to sleep at night without day dreaming for at least 2 hours, and it's still the same for me now. I can't last a day without daydreaming and I will do it anywhere I can. On average I say I go into "my own little world" at least 8 times a day. Music has played a big part in my MD for about 9 years and can easily go through 40 different songs a night each triggering an episode for me. If I try to minimalise how much I do it I go into a deep depression, often feeling empty and disconnected from everything. My characters always have the same names but there personalities change regularly, some a little worrying. I often I include celebrities as well which I started when I was young too.
I enjoy it, mostly because it's far better than the real world sometimes but other times its a real nousense with the it happening when and where it wants, even in public seeing things can trigger it. So the daydream ends up playing out in my head, with me looking completely not in or concentrating x
I generally got worried about all this when I was a teenager, thinking I must have a mental condition or something really serious wrong with me. I didn't and haven't told anyone as no one would think I was a normal sane person, they'd look at me very strange. Nice to see I'm not alone now xxx
Hi to all of you :)
P.S One thing I forgot to mention was how real the emotions feel in my DD's. Love, happiness, shame and even upset I can feel it all x