My invisible enemy

[John Alves]

Ok, I'm not very good with texts and especially in English (I'm from Brazil), it's a surprise for me to meet people who are suffering from the same thing as me, because I actually discovered what MD is about three days ago, but I've been fighting him for seven years and I didn't even know.

I always felt like there was something wrong with me, it was strange, right after I finished high school, that's when it got worse, I converted a little before finishing school, and that was important, because it was after the conversion that I started to struggle. against myself (Normal life of a Christian) But that's when everything got confusing, I was faced with a sea of ​​difficulties that seemed to exist just for me, I was always lost, I was always confused, never knowing what to do or how to do it , discovering addictions and more habits all the time, I felt broken, absolutely everything didn't make sense, I felt like I was going crazy, I didn't know why, I had a lot of difficulties during these seven years I carried a lot of things with me, frustrations, anger, fears, traumas and desires, I confirm that God was showing me, I believe that all of this led me to live in my fantasy world, since I was a child, I don't know exactly when it started, my trigger is practically everything, I identify with each one of you, it's incredible for I finally find a place where everything finally “falls into place”, where I finally understand why I was fighting so much, and apparently more than "normal" people and I hope that with our exchanges of MD experiences this can help us, I will be praying for you.