My first post

[Lottie]

Not really sure how to find my way round this website right now, but i'll give it a go!

For about 3 years maybe more now i've made up this fantasy world in my head. At first i used to role-play on the internet on such websites as habbo.com, which was just some harmless fun, untill the people i used to roleplay with went away, i decided to make my own role-play, in my head. It started off being about twice a week i'd think about it, but now its every day! I based my fantasy world in my favourite Tv programs and Films, making muself one of the characters and interacting with the other characters. It was a way i could escape, just for a while. but now it's got kinda worrying. my social life has gone down and i do have friends, but not a lot. Also i don't know how to deal or react with certain problems by friends have or how to make them feel better. it's really worrying as i dont want to loose my close friends, but of cause i can't explain. Also i look forward to spending time by my self, going back into my world. Its great there, some times i get really depressed that my life is not like that, and i wish i had my characters life. i thought maybe i was slightly loopy or had somethinng wrong with me, it wasnt till today i googled and found out i was not alone. it was such a relif i cried! pathetic i know. i just live in fantasy! i'm wrtting a book kinda thing and i enjoy creating videos about tv/films i like. i'm also quite good at english getting A's in my mock assesments. I'm also in top-sets in school and my school work has not suffered as a result, its just my social side. i guess i just really needed to wright this down to realise that i'm not the olny person who plays out fantasys in her head :p i'm going to stop here, kinda vague, i dont even know if people will read this, i could go on for ever but i just dont have the typing skills to type for this long without getting numb fingers :P i really hope maybe my fantasy world would just stop, or at least take a backseat. i lookforwrad to going to bed just thinking up new storeys for my characters every night, i try and stay awake as long as possible and get annoyed in the morning when i realise i fell asleep. i sometimes talk to the charatcers in my story, quietly, and it makes me feel wanted. kinda sad i know, but i guess the reason for this is my over active imagination, the fact i didnt really have an imagenery friend when i was little or anything like that. and also a break-up from a best freidn of 4 years really hit hard, it changed my personality and i think that was the main turning point that lead me to be more ingrossed in my fantasy world. everything is so much easier there. also i've olny had one boyfriend, and i'm 14. and that was when i was 10. I'm not really ugly or anything like that, its just i'm not the most sociable person and i lack confident, my friend all have guys phone numbers, i have none, i only text like 3 people and it really gets me down, i think my worrys all stem from this fanasy world i made, and my shyness ect.. i really want to overcome it, i heard it can be a mental dicorder, but i know i'm not mental, i'm just a little over imaginative and shy. :(

[Matto]

Maybe you really do need some time to yourself.  You'll desire social interactions once you become lonely and then you'll reach out to people again.  But there's nothing wrong with wanting your privacy.  I never get any right now.

If you need to go somewhere to be alone then do it, just make sure it's a safe place.  Maybe use some of this alone time to write down your fantasies. 

[Marlowe]

Ever heard of Neopets? That was my habbo, I suppose, though my fantasy worlds bloomed long before that. I can totally identify with everything you've said about your social life though, it's pretty much the same here. Personally, I've found that forcing myself to talk to new people (not online) makes me feel like I can do the whole talking thing, so that'd be my advice. Anyway, good luck!

[Anne Rose]

aghh, i used to play on habbo too and those websites, haha. i think that's where my daydreaming got started too. that's interestingg. ;3

[Cordellia Amethyste Rose]

We're trying to get this condition recognized.........which means it'll probably get called a disorder, but regardless, it's not a disease. It's just a new way of thinking & functioning. It has many pros and cons. If we can manage it & learn to work with it, then I think we'll realize we were better off having had it than being "normal". I know how hard it can make things, but we have to stop judging ourselves by other people's standards. I have no friends, and that doesn't make me any less of a good person. This condition has many gifts with it like creativity and the ability to think in ways other people can only dream of, so to speak. We just have to learn how to make the best of it. Please don't judge yourself. It sounds like you're a pretty great and fascinating person. Write whatever you need and want to here. No one will judge you. We're here to support you.