Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
It's been probably at least a year that I've been logged in. I have been struggling so bad with life lately. I have three teenage children, who I solely am responsible for, and I can't keep a job for the life of me. Over the last two years I've quit 6 jobs within the first few weeks due to anxiety, and the want to stay home and daydream. I have also been diagnosed with agoraphobia by my PCP, with panic disorder as well. I don't know if anxiety, and MD goes hand in hand, but both have been getting worse lately. I see a Psychiatrist this week, but I am so reluctant to mention my MD, because I know some therapists don't even recognize it as a real disorder. I want to know if there is a certain specific treatment for MD. As much as it disrupts my life, I've been a little upset lately. My doctor has started me on a new medication for my anxiety, and I feel my creative (mostly MD) side has diminished almost completely. Before the new med, I would write and be very artistic, but now, I have no real creativity to me anymore, and it saddens me. Do you have to sacrifice a piece of yourself to gain a bit of sanity? I feel as if it's an unfair trade off, not that the new meds are helping a heck of a lot with my anxiety. I've come to a point in my life where I don't know what I am going to do anymore. I can't provide for my family anymore, and I know it's going to take at least a year to get disability, if I even can.. I want to be "normal" when it comes to being able to work, and be a productive member of society, but, I also want the unique and creative side of myself too. I'm not sure where I'll go from here, but it's a scary and dangerous voyage.