Where wild minds come to rest
I asked about this online, because I was scared I was like a freak that was going crazy. And then someone told me about this website.
I'm actually quite happy that I'm not the only person in the world with this, and that I'm not like, all weird and stuff because I do this.
I'm 16, and for as long as I could remember, I've been doing this. I always thought it was something I made up because I felt lonely. Which maybe it is?
Sometimes I imagine what it would be like if (I dunno, insert random person here) was my friend and they hung out with me all day. I don't talk to them (obviously, because they are not real. No I don't see them, it's just like, you know, in my head.) but it's like a little piece of a daydream that hangs around me all day, like in an out.
I have conversations with them in my head. It's just, gosh, the people (some of them, not all) are so boring! And so I answer questions I would think they would ask me, or daydream what we do, ect.
When I go to visit family during the summer, they have this huge forest in the back of their home, it's like flipping Narnia for me and my daydreams, oh lord. I can seriously sit on their hammock and just stare into the forest and daydream about it
Am I sounding like I have this? Because I really do, and I'm so glad I'm not the only one, but when I first read this I literally was on the verge of a panic attack like "Geez, am I going like, insane?"
Even here I feel like you'll all judge me, or think I'm crazy (This is getting really awkward for me)
I feel like it is affecting me a bit, because I'm always forgetting things, because I'm daydreaming while people tell me things, and a lot of times in class I just cannot concentrate because a wonderful idea comes into my head and I just want to expand on it, and it's frustrating.
I don't know, I'm even awkward online. It's just, I've never actually gone into such detail about it, and this is just scratching the surface. Again, I'm really glad I found this website, it makes me feel a lot better.
Sometime I want to stop, but other times I don't. I feel like, if I can control it, then I shouldn't, but I'm scared I'm going be like, 45, and still daydreaming constantly.
I've noticed that most of my major daydreaming happens when I'm listening to music. But, wow, I love music too much to stop listening to it. This is frustrating
(Wow this turned out a lot longer than I expected, I'm very sorry)