Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
Hey, well I don't know if anybody else has done this, but I have made up this so called dream guy. Okay, you can call it an imaginary boyfriend. I've never had a real boyfriend before, so I guess this promted me to make one up. We meet in college and he's super popular, but I am the girl that gets him. I cook for him and cuddle with him. He is so cute in my eyes. He's sweet and caring and fun. His hair is always in check. He's super nice and tender and he cares about others. Oh yeah, and he's real good in bed. I pray and pray and pray asking God to help me stop thinking about him, and I actually am starting to see some improvements. This morning, we had to part. I sent him back to the land of "Make Believe." I am really trying to stop this. But you know what? it was like last week when I was working as a cashier when saw him! This man that went through my line actually looked JUST like him! I couldn't even look at him in his eyes when I greeted him because I knew that I would lose my concentration. At the end of his payment transaction, our eyes finally met. I wonder if he knew that I was admiring him?
Then, the next person came through the line, and I took a deep breath because I had gotten so worked up because of this. He came back to where I was standing. Oh my gosh! Did I miss something? Did I make a mistake? Oh, then I realize, he came to retrieve his ball that he forgot on the counter. Oh, I was so much in a daze that I actually forgot his item! OH! BUT. I still can't believe that I saw someone look exactly like the guy that I had wanted to be with or who I am "with". This is amzing in so many ways. I wonder if it was God's way of telling me,"Teagan, I know who you think about in your room, or at work, or in the car, or while you listen to music. I know!" Was it a way of exposing me? Or maybe God just has a sense of humor himself and wanted to share with me? Haha. I don't know, but that was odd that day. I'm still, however, dealing with trying to get rid of my Dream Guy!
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