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[Dusty]

Like many others who have posted their stories, I cannot recall the point in time when my chronic daydreams began. 

I have memories from my early childhood, or perhaps even toddlerhood, where I'd forcefully and excitedly 'run around' on all fours (hands and feet OR hands and knees), which I assume was the kinesthetic movement I employed at that age. My knees were often scraped and rough from the crawling movements. My parents would ask me why I was doing this, and I would respond "I'm thinking" or "I'm excited".

I am 20 years old now, and am daydreaming as much as ever. However, I went through a period (of just over a year) during which my daydreaming hit a lull, and I just fell out of the habit. I found that during this period, I felt much more monotonous. Much less alive. Without daydreaming, I had the emotional variability of rocks.

About six weeks ago, the daydreaming started back up again (nothing bad happened but I'm kinda embarrassed to explain why it came back) and I'm feeling much more energetic, happy, emotional and ALIVE than I did without the daydreaming. I feel much more like 'me'  this way, though I realize I don't my daydreaming isn't as much a problem for me as it is for many others on here. I think I've learned to control it better over the years.

I find that my daydreams can be shot into categories of varying subject matter and intensity. Firstly, and most commonly, I have my 'internal conversations'. These are the most frequent, yet least intrusive/exhaustive/intense daydreams. I generally have internal conversations at all points during the day, whether or not I'm doing anything, whether or not other people are there, etc. Often when I am on the bus or walking to class, etc. When I am alone, these 'daydreams' may get more intense and I usually start pacing my room if that is where I am, as well as mouth out the words. 

Secondly, I have more intense daydreams in which I imagine a certain situation in my head. During these, I am always alone, and if someone else comes near, I will always stop. These always involve pacing and/or other kinesthetic movements, and like others on here, I'll often listen to music, and just about any genre will do it for me. It is during these daydreams when I get the most worked up and 'out of it', and am often totally unable to focus on a task at hand. During these, I tend to get very over-energized.

Thirdly, I have what I call 'relaxing daydreams', and contrarily, these tend to decrease rather than increase my energy. These are what occupy my mind while lying in bed rather than physical movements. These daydreams are the most fantasy-based and involve both self-centred and character-centred daydreams. Often, I imagine an intensely romantic situation with whoever I have a crush on. Sometimes I imagine a scenario involving made up characters and which don't involve me, and I'll tend to create people, communities and worlds in my mind. Also, I'll occasionally imagine myself in the place of a princess or fairy or non-human creature. These are probably my most beneficial daydreams, as they don't generally interfere with everyday tasks and sometimes even help me sleep at night.

And I am so sorry for the very long blog post, if you actually read it I'm impressed. I just like to get carried away with words sometimes.. :3

[Dusty]

Thanks for the warm welcomes! And Emilia, it's okay! It's always good to compare and contrast our experiences. And that does actually sound a lot like me!

OMG 'About a Boy' reference... YES that is EXACTLY how I narrate my life in my head, I'll make clever comments to myself and occasionally repeat them in social situations if the timing is right. It's as if I'm talking to an imaginary best friend or twin, someone who knows me inside and out because I'll make references like "this is just like that time in grade 6!" or "this person totally reminds me of this person!" etc. And then I get sad because I'm not actually that close to anyone to be talking to them in that way :(. 

My main character in my non-me daydreams is different though, she actually has a lot in common with me but is a few years younger than me (I guess I relate better to younger people for some reason? I think because I feel like I have less life experiences than people my own age, and also I miss certain things about being in high school).

And whoa! You stopped daydreaming too? I'm wondering if there is something that happened in your external life that caused you to stop daydreaming or was it more mental/emotional cause and maybe you'd be able to stop again?

[Jenna]

Welcome it's nice to meet you! Yeah I'm not sure when I even began dding too. Now that I think about it I have always though up mini dds, but they were more like what could happen to me for example winning an award. I've always been a bit of a dd. However I know it didn't start becoming a problem  till about 2 years ago.

[greyartist]

welcome