hopefully a new begining

[marla wilcox]

Hello everyone. I am so glad to have found this site. I am a 50 year old woman who for most of my life thought I was insane because I could not get these voices in my head to go away.  I was convinced that I was schizophrenic because I could not get the noise to stop no matter how much I prayed, begged or medicated myself I think I have been on every anti depressant there is. Of course I was depressed because there was so much I wanted to do but could not because I could not focus. I have had this problem for all of my life.  Recently I was in such despair because I had prayed so hard for relief but none was coming that I decided to just give up and be insane. While surfing the net I just typed in excessive daydreaming and maladaptive daydreaming popped up. You can not imagine the relief I felt. It was like someone flipped a switch in my head. I was so euphoric that I was not losing my mind and that there are others like me in the world. Now that I can put a name to what I have I feel like I can fight. For the first time in over 40 years my mind is clear. I am not saying that I am cured or that I don't daydream, but now I feel more equipped to deal with the battle. Sorry my post is so long but I am happy to have found you all.    

[Rosethewolf]

Hello, and you are not alone in this :D

[The1andonlyAbber]

I spent most of my childhood trying to determine whether I had the weird problem of excessively imagining things, everyone else had the weird problem of not using their imagination enough, or if I was just unique and there was no problem anywhere. Everyone I asked about it gave me a different answer. It seems like a simple question, but you have no idea how scary not knowing was for me. Well, I found the answer, which is that I have a weird problem. And even though it wasn't the answer I was hoping for, at least it's an answer. One thing I wasn't expecting to find though, was that I wasn't alone. Other people have a similar situation. Thank goodness I found out about Maladaptive Daydreaming!

[Alta Morden]

I couldn't agree more.  Just finding out what this is, even being able to put a name to it has been such a relief.  I sometimes wonder if part of reason we generally tend to be so secretive about this MDD'ing is that we felt so isolated and unsure what it meant.

[Waq]

same here. i tried praying, meditation. nothing worked. i thought i was lazy. it is a relief to find others like you.

[Teagan Heart]

Welcome, Marla, glad you found solace!